Only you

Chapter 15

He did not see Zayn after his big outburst. When Zayn said Louis was on his period, he meant this time off the year where Louis gets pissed off easily. He hates winter break and Zayn knows why; every year Zayn deals with the same thing. He also is stressed about his exams as a final year student he needs to do good to get an internship in the spring. But it looks like Harry has big plans for them today and he can't wait.

When he walked in, he saw a weird chair in the room. He saw it before when he did his research. It will make him very exposed what makes him a bit nervous.

Harry walks in and kneels in front of him in his black skinny jeans and white t-shirt. "I want to try something with you that you never did before, it is a yellow for you that is why I want to do it." Harry tells him, okay that sounds exiting. "Before that I want to know if you want to do an enema or not" Louis still looks down. Already getting shy about the idea, he did it once and it felt so weird.

"Louis please look at me, I want to know what you are thinking, you're free to speak" Harry sounds calm. He looks up into his eyes, then he looks at the chair in the room. Fuck he fantasized about this in his last relationship, but it went wrong and now he is afraid of it. Harry is a lot more experienced than Aiden, and he trusts him but fuck this is scary. And now he needs to choose if he wants to be clean for it or not. He doesn't like to choose, and he needs to tell Harry that if they go through with this after the talk.

Harry stands up, walks out of the room and comes back within a minute, he has Louis clothes in his arms. Did he do something wrong?

"Please get dressed again, we first need to talk about this" Louis stands up to put his clothes back on. He stays silent, scared that Harry sends him away. Which sub is still scared after all those times playing with their dom?

Harry sits on the bed, so Louis decides to sit on the floor again. Harry sighs, he gets up and sits in front of him. "Why are you suddenly so shy?" Louis shrugs "Louis I'm serious, what is it, you know you can say everything to me. You were doing so good, Tuesday we even laughed about things" Harry says gently. Yeah, but Tuesday was a good day, and they did a green.

Today he has a bad day, and they do something he really wants but is also really scared off. Harry leans back against the bed they are quiet for a while and when he thinks Harry stands up to walk away, he starts to cry. He hugs his own legs and puts his head on his knees. He wants to be small again, back home in Doncaster when it was just his mom and him, when he didn't know he was gay and when his only trouble was if he could play football with Zayn before it got dark or started raining. He feels Harrys arms around him and is put in his lap, he hears soothing words, his hand rubs his back, and he rocks him like you put a baby to sleep.

"I'm so sorry" He lets out a long breath "I really want to do this but the only time I did it, it went wrong. First the enema and then the fisting, that is why I put it like I never did it before. That was what you planned right?" Harry nods. Louis nods too "Okay yeah let's do it" he says while he wipes his tears away.

He wants to stand up, but Harry holds him down "You don't have to do this, if you don't stand a hundred percent behind it, we are not doing it" Harry says sternly

Louis looks him in the eyes, he looks concerned "I just had a shit week, nothing to be concerned about. Don't know why I started crying out of nowhere. I stand a hundred percent behind my decision to do this, and I know I can always color out if it gets to much."

Harry lets him go and Louis stands up. He extends a hand to Harry "Come on Mr. Styles give me an enema". Harry takes it and shakes his head, when he is on both his feet, he gives Louis a kiss on his forehead. They walk out of the room to the bathroom.