Where Do I Go From Here

Chapter 10

It's been three hours since we started our drive and it was boring. I'm been staring out the window trying to keep my mind off the people I'm going to. The people I never wanted to see again. The people who tormented me. My brother, my mate and my old pack.

I suddenly noticed we weren't on the same road as before. "Hey. Where are we going?" I asked. "It's your birthday. Right?" Grace said her eyes trained on the road. I simply nod my head. "Well. Every year we do something special on you birthday. And we are not breaking the tradition this year." True said. With that being said we pulled over by a mall. I smiled a huge smile. "I love you guys." I said when we got out the car. I grabbed both of there hands and dragged them into the mall.

******Randy'sPOV******

I'm a sad sorry excuse for an alpha.

I'm so bad at doing my job that I have to have another pack come here and do it for me.

I used to be a great alpha.

I treated all my pack members with respect.

Well all except for one.

My sister.

I treated her like crap after our parents died. I felt someone needed to pay for there death. So being the ass hole I was I decided to let the anger I was feeling out on her. My innocent sister. I made her feel like she wasn't needed, and that nobody loved her.

Never ever taking it to thought that she might run away.

That she might leave me when I needed her.

I know that I treated her bad but if I really didn't care about her I would have banished her from the pack. Which I didn't do. I love my baby sister. She is all I have left of our parents. Sure I have many of there possessions. But what's better than your little sister who is almost a spitting image of your mother. Why if she was here right now I would hug her and kiss her. Begging on my knees for her forgiveness knowing completely that I wouldn't deserve it.

Oh and don't think that I haven't searched for her. I have. I searched for 2 years straight. Me and Trey.

Speaking of Trey. That evil little son of a bastard. He was supposed to be my best friend, but he didn't tell me till the last day we searched for her that she was his mate and that he rejected her.

As soon as he told me I was on his ass like grass. I couldn't believe that I hadn't noticed this sooner, honestly. He was in worse shape then me. The only time he left his room was to search for her. All he ever did was mope around. He sobbed for 5 days straight when she ran, claiming that he only felt bad that we all hurt her so bad. He looked so dead like he wasn't living on the inside.

Ever since that day I don't talk to him. It's easy to avoid him cause he doesn't come out of his room. I haven't seen him once in almost 2 years, and I'm happy bout it. I don't think I could control myself from killing him.

Everyone hear is really sorry for how they treated her all except for Courtney. Goodness I have no patience for her. Actually I have no patience for anyone. The only person who will bring me out of this funk will be my mate when I find her. It's been 6 years and I still haven't found her.

All I know is that when I do I will never ever let her go.

******Trey'sPOV******

Dead.

That's how I feel and look.

I need her.

My mate.

My love.

My light.

My soul.

I regret everything. I regret every word I said, every time I didn't help her. Everything I did to hurt her, for showing her hatred when she showed me love and kindness. I regret treating her like she was nothing when she was everything. I regret every tear I caused her to shed.

Every time I caused her to fall.

Every insult.

Every burn.

And especially that one rejection.

That day haunts me.

It haunts me everyday.

Everyday.

24/7

I won't ever forget her sweet smell of roses that made me feel intoxicated.

Her scent is my drug.

When I sensed her I was overjoyed. I ran to her scent. But when I saw Hope. I was confused and I know she was confused to she was about to walk past me when our arms brushed. I always thought that "feelings sparks" thing was fake until it happened. That's when I noticed her beauty. Her sweet caramel skin, her long brown hair and her eyes.

Gosh, her deep chocolate brown eyes. You could easily get lost in them.

Everything happened to fast. My wolf wanted nothing more then to claim right then.

But my common sense kicked in.

I'm 15 and she just turned 14.

That thought didn't bother me.

She is the omega, and she is my best friends sister. No one likes her or respects her. So by me being with her no one would respect me either.

That bothered me.

And with me being the dick head I was. I pushed my wolf into the back seat and took control. I let being popular and having respect come before her.

If I could go back in time I'd change it all.

Starting from the day her parents died.

Why change just the rejection if I could change everything for her.

I would have told her to not go and get the football or I would of went with her. I would of stood up for her when Randy made her omega. I would have talked him out of it.

I always new it was wrong for him to let his anger out on her. But I was to scared to stand up. I'm a whole year younger than him. Plus he just became alpha which made me twice as scared as I already was. He also gave me my reputation. He made me popular and didn't want that taken away.

Damn it. I was a idiot.

I know she's alive.

And I know she's happy where she is.

That's enough to keep me living.

If she was here with me. I would hold her in my arms and.... and.... an never, ever let her go. I'd promise to treat her how she needs to be treated.

I pray to the Moon Goddess everyday to one day bring her back to me. So I can tell her how much I missed her. An how I need her. I'd tell her how sorry I am, and what a ass I was. I'd break down in tears right in front of her begging for her to take me back.

If she ever comes back. Mark my words. I WILL MAKE HER MINE. No matter what it takes.