Expect The Unexpected

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

Wanda's POV

i rush out of the conference room right behind y/n to make sure she's okay but i can't find
I'm looking for her and she isnt in her room or in the kitchen not even the bathroom so the only other place i can think about is natasha's room

i knock on the door

i hear her hyperventilating

i rush to her

"y/n breathe" i grab her hand and put it against my heart and place my hand over her heart like i used to do when we were together

"breathe in and breathe out" she eventually starts to calm down and start to breathe normally

i start to look deep into her eyes and start to get lost in them

before i know it i find myself leaning in for a kiss before i stop myself totally forgetting about natasha

"im so sorry y/n" i feel so bad for trying to kiss her while she is in a vulnerable state

"it's okay wanda i was just caught off guard"

"no it's not okay i almost kissed you while knowing you a vulnerable and missing natasha" right when i said that i would see her eyes glimmer with sadness

fuck i shouldn't have said anything

"wanda it's okay but thank you for getting me to remind calm"

"yeah anytime are sure your okay"

"i just need some time to myself right now" she tells me

i understand she is still dealing with nat leaving i couldn't imagine being her place right now

"yeah that's fine i will leave you to it" i walk out of the room and go back to the conference

Y/n's POV

wanda just left the room and i don't know while she was calming me down it just brought certain memories of when we were together

i still can't comprehend how natasha just left so sudden without even saying goodbye and I just wish i had some closure

my mind can't even process everything and it's just so overwhelming and for some reason the one people that can help me and keep my mind off of her is wanda

i see cant forgive myself for what i put wanda through for when i did what i did during the mission but i really did love wanda or do i still love her

i don't know at this point it's confusing and complicated but my feelings for wanda have never gone away i mean i was with her for over 2 1/2 years feelings like that's don't just go away in a few months

but there is a difference when im with wanda and when im with natasha

wanda is so sweet and compassionate she knows stuff about me that i can't even comprehend and she just understands me and ive never met someone with a pure soul like that one wanda has it just different which makes me love her

natasha on the other hand is ruthless and careless but she cares for me and when she is with me she is different she was broken in the red room and now she is better but natasha makes me feel safe and makes me wanna do crazy things which i love and that makes me love her

and i love them both but on different levels and i can't promise that i won't develop anything for wanda while natasha isn't her i mean it's wanda and ive known her since forever

i just need to rest and time to think about everything

Wanda's POV

after leaving y/n during the whole thing i kind of didn't feel sorry towards the end and that probably makes me sound selfish but i just can't her out of my mind

i know her and natasha are together but it just hurts knowing she is moving on so fast

i still can't comprehend how she cheated when we were together for years but i guess people change and so do their feelings

i just think about y/n all the time and for some stupid reason it's hard to get her off my mind like when im sleeping at night when im eating and other things to

all i need is time to figure everything out