Ronnie Radke

Well this morning was different . Not walking up to the same thing thats kept me up for the past 5 months . Maybe today was going to be different ...finally !
Im not a narmal person . Really i think i'd be kinda scared of myself if i were another person . This morning i chose to wear my black vans with dark jeans and my grey falling in reverse shirt . I thought it was a great out fit , mom thought otherwise . On the way my mom gave this really shitty pep talk that went kinda like this . " okay hunny , remember that on everyones first day things can go wrong ." If anything at all happens call me ." She said "I will mom jesus its high school not the fucking first day of kindergarten." I replied "Im sorry im just concerned." It was silent the rest of the drive .
As i walked up the the front office i saw him again . He just smiled at me and i kinda ran into this pole right out side the doors . I had dropped all my stuff , lying on the floor not wanting to get up from embarrassment , i thought good one Jessie . Right as i was sitting up i realized he was picking my stuff up and reached for my hand to help me up ... At that moment i had mentally died .
As soon as i was standing he handed me my stuff and introduced himself ." My name is Ronnie Radke , im the office aid ,do you need some help? "
He asked in this really amazing and sweet way . "Ummm yea actually, thanks , im Jessica by the way ." I replied in this really shy voice . "Well Jessica, thats very interesting , bumping into a pole and having this "familiar name ." Said Ronnie . "Here ill take you to first period after you get your schedule." he offered. "Oh , thanks ." Blushing badly , while trying to hide my face .
After i got the papers we walked slowly to the my first class . He kinda tried saying something then stopped . "So how's your day ." I say kinda out of breath . "Ha better now ." He replied as if I'd helped in some way . I couldnt help but smile like an idiot . " blushing are we ?" Ronnie finally said . " maybe just a little bit ." I did this stupid giggle i wish i hadn't ... " well i guess this is your stop , see you next period ." I looked at him confused , but then realized he did have my schedule after all .
All through first period i was sitting there thinking about Ronnie . He seemed different, honestly i liked the feeling i got aroud him . The bell finally rang for second period , there was Ronnie waiting outside the class . It made me smile like i was the Cheshire cat , i couldnt stop . He looked over , " i like your smile , its beautiful..." I just kinda looked at him and i could feel myself blushing . This was the start of something amazing , i could feel it .