𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿

Chapter one

may thirteenth the day dante died it's been almost three years for a couple months after he died I would call him every day hoping he would answer he never did

Lijah ace and Eli have been trying to get in contact with me I never answer they knew Dante wouldn't make it back

And they never told me they lied to my face every single time I would ask them when Dante was getting home or when was gonna show up

I was left out again

After I got back to my dorm after hearing what had happened I packed everything and left

I never got the chance to give him his birthday gifts

I never went to his funeral I don't feel bad about not going

Dante was there for me at my moms funeral how was I gonna sit there and watch the person that once was there for me now in a casket?

A lot has happened

Izzy she was there she found out she was pregnant around a year after Dante died she has a child now

Dante and I ended just as we started I'd give up everything to just have five more minutes with them all. all of us together watching a movie

ive been trying to get revenge who ever killed Dante didnt just take Dante away from me they took absolutely everything I have nothing and no one

I have Milo shes seems so sad tho I have one of Dante's hoodies she sleeps on it every night it's adorable

I don't know if I could ever forgive them they could've told me it's not fair I was always left out I always am

"all good things must come to an end eventually"

Dante would be 22 I'm 20

I hope Dante wasn't sad before he died he didn't deserve to be sad if I could I would taken away all of his sadness

Lijah texts me every single day a simple good morning or good night or a how are you

I don't respond it's not fair that he can act like it's all okay and that he didn't do anything wrong that's not fair

I always think about the 'what if's'

what if Dante didn't go?

what if they told me?

what if he never died?

what if he was still here?

what if it was my fault?

I could go on for hours

Dante was my first love and only love I could never love anyone like I loved him

Okay that's enough with the sad depressing shit

I kill people

I hear my phone ring taking me out my thoughts Lijah again

Fuck it

I answer it and hear whispers

"What" I grumble

"lavender" he stutters i don't have time for this

I hang up fuck him. fuck that actually fuck all of them especially Lijah

although I have an extremely deep hateful feeling for them I could never actually hate them

i can't say I don't miss them especially Lijah Lijah was probably my best friend i mean obviously I loved them all but the best friend love I had for Lijah was different he was the best friend that I wanted my whole life

well he was my best friend

maybe if I would of never became roommates with Dante this would of never happened

there has to be more to it theres no way Dante went on a mission and randomly got shot

theres nothing on it it's like seconds after Dante died everything disappeared

it makes no sense ive spent every day trying to find a lead trying to find someone who has some sort of information

although angelo did say an idea that could work is it wrong yes do I care no

he mentioned maybe to kidnap not harm but threaten and kidnap ace Eli and Lijah

i know they know more then what they've told me there's no way they don't

i won't hurt them they just have to tell me what I wanna know that's it

all those times they all promised nothing would change after graduation was a lie them all giving me hints I was an idiot

"Could you ever live without me"

"You could never hate me right lav?"

I trusted them never again

I hear a small knock on my door taking me out of my thoughts

I see Isabella come waddling in

Isabella Izzy's daughter

"aunty lav" she mumbles

"yes my princess" I say walking over to pick her up

"can I sleep with you tonight?" She asks

"of course you have your blanket?" I ask

She gives me a nod and runs over to my bed

"Be careful bella" I say

"wheres your mother at" i say raising my eyebrow

"I don't know" she says with a shrug

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sorry this took so long to come out but yeah  🧍🏽‍♀️