To You Which I Hurt

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"Do you remember?"

"What are you saying?"

"Do you remember, when you got scared and hid in any dark corner you could find? Hugging your pillow, crying, only to run away?"

"So what? I was a kid!"

"Then what's your excuse now?"

"Shut up."

"Hey! You're the one talking with me again... You only call when you are on edge! That's annoying-"

"THAT'S WHY I CREATED YOU!"

"So what? Are you now regretting it?"

"Yes."

"How funny."

"Of course I regret it, you-"

"Manahimeko!"

"Shit!"

She raised from her slumber, only for the tears to be shown and her weakness known.

Damn it, you could totally see I was crying! Where's a spoon when you need one!

"Okaasan said it's time for breakfast."

"Ah, ok."

...

"Umm, how was Russia?" he says as he scratches his head.

"Uh, a new experience? Something new to learn?"

"Ah. Nice..."

"Okaasan is probably going to talk about our high school enrollment. You came at a great time, exams start next week."

"Is that so? How lucky."

"Ahem... See you downstairs."

How awkward. Seriously!
Well, I mean, no just plain awkward, but it was to be expected. I haven't seen or talked to him in years, not that I lost much, I couldn't care less.

The stairs are still creaking with each step I take. It's amazing how the smell of wood hasn't left this house. Oh this pictures are new! Baby Tobio, baby Miwa, fist step, first day at kindergarten, fist real food eaten. Huh?
Where are my pictures?
There's none... Not even from my birth? We share the same birthday! We were born at the same time! How could they do this?
What am I saying, seriously get it together, I came back because I don't care.

"I am here."

"Good take a seat! You haven't been home in ages, so I prepared your favorite dish! Taste and tell me how it is! Ah, the times when you guys were little and ate this a lot!"

...

It is not my favorite food, it's Tobio's.
Pork curry with an egg... I like katsudon. You promised me, when I was six, and you made Katsudon, that you will remember it. You swore. With a smile so bright on your face, which lightened my dark life, made out of a shadow, a star. You lied and fed me bullshit.How pitiful. Really it makes me sick how disgustingly pitiful this is. Annoying. Everything is so annoying.
Annoying. Annoying.

"Sorry, I am not hungry. I am on a diet."

"Huh? A diet? But you are so skinny!! You should see Miwa, she has curves in all the right places and she is beautiful, never been on a diet!!"

"Well I'm not Miwa."

Yes, it is true I am skinnier than avarage and yes it isn't the healthiest, but figure skating requires as much. After all, it's my choice... So what gives you the right to compare me to Miwa. She is older, she has never undergone dieting or starving for weeks to be in shape. She never trained till she couldn't walk. She never worked as much as I did. She is not me and I am not her!

"Oh- You!"

"Okaasan, about the exam."

"Ah, yes Tobio."

"Manahimeko, you know, siblings are supposed to stick together and since you have just returned, you don't know much about high school,or life here. Won't you do mommy a favor and go with your brother to Shiratorizawa?"

"Did he get in?"

"Huh?"

"Not yet. I sm sure I will pass. It's the best institute for volleyball known in the whole country for it's powerhouse."

"You need grades, good grades."

"Manahimeko!"

"Sure, I'll go wherever, but what if I don't get in? If Tobio fails then I drop out isn't that so? So what if I fail?"

"We can find another school for you, something close to Shiratorizawa!"

"Ha!"

...

"If you're so confident that you will get in then so be it, but if it happens that I get in and you don't, I will not transfer. Deal?"

No way, that actually got him riled up? Pft-
I know I won't get in, I barely speak Japanese, can't remember shit about how to write kanji and stuff. There are thousands of hundreds of those.

"Deal." he sets his chopsticks down making a loud thud noise, which was heard in the whole house.

"Tobio! Manahimeko! Fine you two! Ugh, do as you please! Don't ask your mother, what does she know!? Just a few decades of living so what! Go ahead! You know how much I despise fighting Manahimeko?! "

"Is that so? I forgot."

"You! Did you come back to fight with your family!"

"I will go cram."

"Young lady! Don't turn your back on your mother!"

...

At the same time, in Russia

The snow's not stopping. You had a love hate relationship with it. As much as you liked staring at it slowly dancing through air, their shine never failed at making your eyes shimmer. You said it reminded you of the rink. How dare you leave like that Hime?!

"Ой! Юрий, приезжай сюда!"

<< Oy! Yuriy, priyezzhay syuda! >>
>>Oi! Yuri, come here!<<

"Da!"

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