.seesaw. || yoonmin story

.eight.

Yoongi's POV

I was sitting on a very uncomfortable hospital chair while staring at my pale boy on the bed. He was sleeping.
Jimin's wounds were pretty severe.

He's had a minor brain concussion, and almost became paralyzed due to a drug liquid poured into his drink by that bitch. Had we found him even half an hour later, he could have lost all of his moving abilities for good. His body was covered in bruises and scratches.
I clenched my hand into a fist.
I made a promise with myself that if I ever meet one of those fuckers again, it will be their last moment on this earth.
I was mad at myself. I wasn't able to protect Jimin when he needed me the most. I'm such a shitty person. But from now on, I will make sure that no one hurts my Jiminie. I will protect him with my life.
Even if he doesn't feel the same way about me.
Why was I avoiding a person that had my fucking heart right in their hand?
I was a jerk. I was avoiding Jimin because I was scared of the effect that he had on me. I wanted to wrap him in my arms whenever he was near me, but of course I didn't because that was weird and creepy. I was waiting for him to maybe say something, after that one night happened. But he never brought it up, so I figured he just took it as a one night stand. I didn't bring it up because I was a coward.
Maybe to him, we were just friends with benefits. Friends who fuck here and there and then act as if it didn't happen.
For me though, it was more than that.
I thought about the night that it all happened.
I remember warning Jimin that I wouldn't hold back once I start, but he didn't care and he became very needy. And then...then I didn't hold back.
I tried to think of what happened before. But...I couldn't remember. How did we even find that bedroom? I didn't know there was one.
I couldn't remember anything before that. And that creeped me the fuck out. It didn't happen that long ago for me to not recall anything! What the fuck.
I started to have an uneasy feeling in my chest. Something was wrong.
I was pulled out of my thoughts by my hand being squeezed lightly. I looked up.
"Jiminie...", I whispered.
Jimin was awake. He was looking at me, his gaze tired.
"Yoongi...where am I? What happened?" his voice was soft and weak and it made my vision blurry as tears flooded my eyes.
He was laying there on this ugly hospital bed, nearly paralyzed and he went through all of this shit because I was an ignorant coward. It was my fault.
"Jiminie...", I said again. My head fell between my shoulders as I didn't want him to see me like this. I was shaking.
"Yoongi, are you..are you crying?", Jimin whispered, worry latched onto his voice.
I was. I was crying. Because I've hurt him. I've let other people hurt him. I hated how emotional I could get sometimes. But now, nothing could stop the stream of tears that was staining my face.
"Jimin-ah, I'm so sorry I w-wasn't there for you. It's all my fault...the drug that was in that drink...Jimin, you almost lost the ability to walk. I'd never forgive myself if that happened. I'm so s-sorry..." I sobbed. I felt pathethic.
"Yoongi...could you please give me that glass of water?" Jimin said quietly.
His question caught me off guard. But, I did reach out over him, since the glass was on the opposite side of the bed. If there was any way I could help him, I would.
Suddenly, I could feel his small hand on the back of my neck. I looked at him confused, my eyes still puffy from crying.
Before I could register what was happening, he pulled my head down and I could feel his lips on mine.
My eyes went wide, but then they closed as I leaned into the kiss.
Jimin's lips were so, so soft and he tasted like honey. My palm that was previously reaching out for the glass, rested itself on Jimin's face, caressing his cheek. I was addicted to the taste of his lips. After a while, we pulled away as we were out of breath.
We both looked at each other.
"Yoongi. It's NOT your fault. Please, don't blame yourself." Jimin whispered with a sad smile.
I was out of words, still processing that he just kissed me. My eyes started to water again.
"I shouldn't have ran away like that. It was irresponsible." Jimin added, his voice filled with regret.
"It's okay, Jiminie. You're safe now, that's all that matters." I told him.
He smiled.
How I missed that smile...

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Hello guys!

A mini chapter this time, stay tuned for more!:)

-kathris