The Taste Of Desire Betrayal And Love {book one} under editig(old)

Chapter Nine {Can't Sleep}

A/N  No proofreading has been done at the moment will editand check later 

Sam are you sure you have everything?

Yes dad I have everything all ready

Well you have till the end of the day if you haven’t got everything I suggest you go shopping today

Dad I yelled getting frustrated I’m all ready for school I have all my stuff gym stuff bag pens pencils notepads I’m fine but thank you.

I start back at school tomorrow. So I have to face seeing Lia and Preston swan about like nothing ever happened.  which to be honest I’m dreading but this is my last year in school so I need to focus on getting good grades which means more listening and co operation keep my head down and no fooling about .

Uniform shoes trainers check

Bag check

Stationary check

P.E kit check

All sorted I went through my list one last time just in case or else my dad will be mad with me after giving me plenty of warnings to get all my stuff together.

I decided to have this night to myself bath and early night tonight ill cuddle up to my pink fluffy hot water bottle and a hot coco and watch some films.

I sat their comfortable in my bed I was just half way through watching Mr and Mrs Smith when my dad quietly knocked on my bedroom door Sam are you awake

Yes dad come in what’s the matter you have a visitor at the door

Ok dad who is it

It’s Preston

Oh’’ No! I yelled get him out and away from me

Samantha he just wants to put things right

No dad he doesn’t he’s a liar and a cheater

Samantha I don’t quite know all the story but you need to sort this out we don’t want no problems or trouble her ok but please sort it

Dad you’re so unfair sometimes I said shoving past him to walk down the stairs.

What is it this time Preston I said getting tired of him.

You didn’t answer you’re phone Samantha.

I’m not obliged to answer to you as and when at you’re beck and call I said with an annoyed tone

Samantha I cut him off NO! don’t you even dare start that talk with me Samantha love it don’t work no more after what you have done you despise me I knew you was trouble Preston James but you’ve gone way far beyond any help now you listen and you listen good I said poking his chest stay the hell away from me and don’t you dare come anywhere near me again now go I don’t ever want to see you ever again so please just leave me to rebuild my life.

Samantha please he said looking hurt let me in please we can talk you know baby we always manage to make it work I love you I could smell the alcohol on his breath as he stepped forward to hug me

Preston I said no now please leave and with that said I tried to  close the door up in his face but he put his foot in the gap Samantha you’re being stupid now he spat he was starting to get angry that I could tell in his voice.

Preston you hurt me to bad this time I had to have surgery you just left me their in that park you just left me to die I cried

Shush baby I’m sorry I love you

No I said you don’t that’s just it you want a punch bag and Preston I’m not going to be that no more I then with force shut the door in his face

He thinks he can keep waltzing back into my life after each time he beats me and we argue he can think again.

I slammed the door shut and went straight up to my room with my dad on toe don’t you slam that door Sam fine I yelled.

I got into my room and my phone flashed up as it was on silent

Next time you won’t be so lucky to be found ill destroy you Samantha Fox

My hands trembled after that message from Preston I threw my phone down and turned it off

Its 21.30 I decided to go to bed at least ill not be tired for school I thought. I set my alarm for 06.30 to have a shower and have a breakfast and give myself plenty of time.

Preston grabbed me by my throat and was laughing in my face slut he kept spitting at me you cheap pathetic dirty slut aren’t you I cried and screamed repeatedly answer me he shook me like a rag doll N’N’NO I sobbed you’re hurting me please I begged for him to stop but it made no difference the more I tried to pull away the tighter he got he then dragged me by my hair and slapped me across the face

Stop I screamed please the baby

Exactly Samantha my love I wouldn’t be doing this if you had of took my ultimatum he said inches from my face and holding my collar on my baby pink polo shirt.

I managed to get out of his grip and kick him in his man parts I told you no Preston I’m not doing it

And I told you either you do it or ill do it he grunted Sam love I given you a choice but obviously you chose the wrong one you stupid stubborn girl he bent down laughing with his evil laugh I chose the opportunity to try and break free so I ran as fast as I could clinging to my belly hoping that my baby would be ok.

Then bang he had caught up with me hello love he said so soft anybody would think you’re running away from me then he threw me to the ground he violently kicked me in the head and face and gave a few blows to my ribs and stomach as much as I screamed and tried to fight back I couldn’t take no more then I blanked out but before she slowly drifted into consciousness her last heard words were don’t worry that thing will be gone by the time you’ve come round.

SAMANTHA my dad shouted as he barged his way in my room I was sat up crying dad I whispered he sat on my bed with me and hugged me and shushed me bad dream sweetheart in between sobs I said it was a nightmare

I’m scarred daddy I sobbed he pulled out of my grip Samantha please I’m you’re father it’s my duty to protect you what’s happened I’ve never seen you this hysterical before please Sam talk to me

Mel came in with a drink of juice she squeezed by hand Sam you was shouting out no stop it it’s my baby what’s going on are you pregnant?

.I looked to my dad then to the floor Mel Melisa I’m sorry I woken you up and you to dad the both of you go back to sleep ill be ok Samantha my dad questioned please dad just drop it you wouldn’t understand

No Sam I wouldn’t and I never would for as long as you’re keeping things from me ill never understand. Dad please go back to bed I said wiping my eyes. I’ll leave you to it Melisa said and then left with a small smile on her face.

Would you like me to stay here whilst you sleep my dad asked whilst rubbing my head?

I looked at him please dad that would be great.

He stayed with me till I fell back too sleep it didn’t take me long to get back to sleep I was safe in my dads arms for now.

 I didn’t have anymore nightmares that night but it was becoming a habit the same nightmare over and over since I left hospital it was also another reason mum complained as I wouldn’t talk to her how do you explain to you’re parents and you’re best friends that your boyfriend beats you up regularly and tries to sell you to his mates for his drug money then gives you an automation have an abortion or ill kill it they would think I’m a let down a waste of space and pathetic a disgrace even im not even going to tell them and have them look at me and treat me differently and be a shame to them.