Days are grey now, my love. There are little colorful moments here and there, but in general it's grey and even black sometimes. I don't even want to get up in the morning. I don't know why I feel like that. I have almost everything I want.
Now I just want to lay in bed all day and I don't know I want to read but it takes me so much energy. I want to do something but all makes me sad for no reason. I get mad for no good reason. I am so bored.
Life is so boring these days. The usual routine makes me nauseous just thinking about it. I have so many things to do and so many things I want to do but not time and the time I have, I waste it in being sad. Or to stare at emptiness, thinking of nothing and everything.
Even when I force my smile it's easy to tell it's fake. I wish I could change the way life works. You know. How our way of thinking is made. If we weren't brought up the way we are, everything would be different.
What if it was normal to wake up at 2pm and to go to sleep at 4am? What if it was normal to not know what I want to do with my life at any age? What if I had the courage to do what I really want? Not to choose the safest path. I have so many dreams darling!
Do you know what I wanna do? Write poems. Read every book I ever wanted to. Live. But I can't. I am a dreamer, yes. But I'm also really and deeply scared. People say "what's the worst that can happen?", but so many things can happen. Beautiful ones can happen too. But bad ones are scary.
Don't worry, I'm thinking about you, I'll be better soon. Wait for me.
YOU ARE READING
Through words
RomansaA villain slowly falls in love with the reader. It starts out with the main character (the villain) introducing himself. Through the entire book he talks to the reader and falls more and MORE in love with them, but there's another character " the he...
