Today was the funeral of my wife..I still can't believe she's gone, how am I supposed to raise our son without her? How am I supposed to cope with her being gone? Where do I even begin? The service and repast go by quickly. I just wanted to get home with my new born and cuddle with him.
-flash back-
"Shit! She's losing too much blood! Doctor what do with do?" The midwife yells. The doctor tries everything he can with the limited equipment he has. He instructs the midwife to perform CPR as he run and IV into her. He tried everything he could to stop the bleeding but he couldn't. Yoongi, Hoseok, and Jin keeps Namjoon away from it all while he's with his new born son in his and Luna's master bedroom.
The twins Taehyung and Jeongguk are watching the whole thing go down with sad eyes. Jimin and Solar were assisting with all they could until the doctor called the time of death. January 9th 2019 time 7:29 pm. That was when Namjoon's world ended and began again.
-end of flash back-
Every day at 7:29pm he would give thanks to the gods and he created an alter just for Luna with all her favorite comfort foods. He got a schedule down packed with being a full time father and a full time mafia king. On important days he would take Han-Suk over to Yoongi's home to be with Jimin or to Hoseok's home to be with Solar, but majority of the time Luna's mother had the infant. She needed the comfort as well.
He finally made it home with his son so he could relax. He went upstairs to their shared room together now and laid his child on the bed. He went into the bathroom and ran a bath for him and his boy. Before he went back into the room he heard talking...a woman's voice. He didn't hear everything but all he could make out was. "See you soon." He bursts into the room and no one is there except Han-Suk.
Namjoon searches the room and house thoroughly before running back up stairs and picking his child up. He undressed himself then his son then enters the bath. He groans as the water touches his aching body, the warm substances was needed for his bones. His twin slept peacefully on his chest as he splashed a little water on the infants bum and back.
"Mm you still have that new baby smell." He says while smiling to himself. The baby's eyes flutter but doesn't open and he smiles while sleeping. Showing his gummy smile with deep dimples that are to die for. Namjoon kisses his son's forehead and lay back and enjoy the bath for another 15 mins.
He gets out the tub and dry off. Han-Suk is awake now frowning as his father oils his little body down with coconut oil. "Don't look at me like that, you look just like your mommy making that face." He chuckled and Sukie smiles at his father. Once he infant is dressed Namjoon oils up and out his pajamas on. He and the baby went down the stairs to make formula for Han-Suks dinner.
"Mm I think I got it perfect now Hanie..let daddy know what you think yeah?" He says to the lad. The baby began to suck the milk down not taking any breathes for at least 10 seconds at a time. He coos and make little noises while sucking the bottle down. "Oh you eat so well Han-Sukie look at my boy go." Namjoon praises his offspring.
Once he's done feeding he lays him on his chest and taps his back a few times before the child burps loudly. Namjoon smiles at the sound. He keeps the child on his chest and lay back staring at the ceiling which has huge window in it. The moon beams right down to his face. "Hi bunny...we meet again. Today was the day of your service and honestly, I honestly didn't think I would make it through. I'm so sad now bunny. What do I do? How do I move on? I don't want to move on. I just want you here with me and our son. Am I so selfish for wanting you here for me more though?"
After that Namjoon drifts off into a well needed slumbers. His son lay on his chest and that comforts him even more. All of his worries starts to fade as soon as he officially asleep.
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Hi!
I'm back with book two of Tell me who you loyal to and I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did writing it.
SHORT CHAP I KNOW!!! But the build up with be so great.
