for all the wrong reasons

08. seesaw

APRIL POV

I tried staying calm at the fact Jungkook was most likely hanging out with another girl, and had already had her wrapped around his finger. I tried staying calm, but believe me it doesn't mean I wouldn't burst out any second of now. I grabbed a random book from a shelf in my room and was ready to throw it against my door, before I heard a knock. "April.." A breathless whisper from the cause of my problems. I dropped the book, letting it slip from my grasp. The book cover felt soft against my finger tips, before it hit the floor with a thump. "April open the goddamn door!" I could hear his fist slamming against the door, and his foot slamming against it too. He seemed angry for no reason. I hadn't done anything, had I? I walked over to the door, twisting the knob and opening it for him. Once it opened he jumped on me and I suffered the same fate as the book that hit the floor minutes ago. "Fuck.."

 He mumbled. He was on top of me, his arms trapping my head from moving an inch or so. His bangs cover his forehead and he seemed so angelic, until he started speaking. "Give me something strong." This man had no manners whatsoever. I loved him and all but that still gave him no right to literally walk all over me. "April!" He yelled in my ear. God, he was beautiful but he had an asshole personality. "How strong?" He gave me enough room to sit up, he slid off me, his hands now behind his back as he cracked his neck. "The strongest thing you have. I don't know!" I started walking to my drawer and pulled out a box. I took out the bottle and threw it at him. Sure I liked this man and all, as i've been saying since forever, but i'm upset with him for now.

"How much?" I thought of double charging him, but he's not worth it so I just went with the regular customer charge. "$30." His eyes got big, and he held the bottle in front if his face. "This small thing? $30?" I laughed, I leaned down so he could see me a bit better. "You said you wanted something strong, did you not?" My arms rested on my knees, but that support was soon broken when he pulled me down by the hair forcefully and kissing me rough. Anyone who saw this might call it rape but it was just our thing. I would be mad, and he'd come and make it worse but make it better at the same time. Like a seesaw.

A never ending, continuous cycle. This was very unhealthy. It made me want to disappear. But god, are you serious? Jungkook was my everything. An obsession if you'd want to call it that, it really was so stupid. I couldn't focus with him kissing me like this. I loved every bit of it, trust me. He bit on my lower lip, I took it as a sign he wanted me to open my mouth wider, so I did. He immediately slid his tongue in. If this kiss went any deeper I don't know what would happen. Sure I've had sex with plenty of guys, but this one in particular, it was really like a dream come true. I wasn't dreaming was I? No, I wasn't. I pinched myself, it hurt, for real.

He pulled apart from my lips around the 3rd minute mark. "Can I take off your clothes? I need this." Jungkook needed me? I think I really was dreaming. God, this was the best day ever. I nodded. His hands were cold, tickling my torso for less than a second or so. I felt like exploding from excitement. Jungkook lifted up my shirt gently, tossing it away. The floor must've been an uncomfortable place for both of us, and Jungkook got the signal for that, taking in the fact he had lifted me into the air, tossing me onto the bed. He tossed off his shoes one by one, they flew somewhere in the room. I guess. He unbuttoned my pants, whispering something along the lines of "Fuck it."

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AUTHOR POV

Y/N swung both her and Yoongi's hands in the air as they walked "home". "Hey, look! We're almost there!" Y/N pointed to the house, with the little gnome at the door step, a little to the right. "So what do you think of Jungkook?" Yoongi had to ask, he couldn't keep to himself anymore. "Ew, him? He's a dick." Yoongi's lips twitched, sure Jungkook was his friend, of course he was, but Y/N, she for sure fell from the clouds.  "Why do you say that?" Y/N gripped his hand a little tighter than she had a second before, maybe this was too sensitive for her. "I hate people like him. people who think they can walk over someone else because they're better. I was on the phone with my boyfriend, and he hung him up!" 

Shit, shit, shit. Y/N had a boyfriend. And here Yoongi thought he had an actual chance with her, he was so fucking stupid. So, so, fucking stupid. "Well I guess he isn't really my boyfriend. I had to move to this dump because of my parents y'know?" Y/N stopped swinging their intertwined hands, and instead they were steady. "It's not really a dump." Yoongi said laughing. "I guess so, I mean there's you here for me, right?" She stopped walking and blocked him from walking any further, getting closer to him to. Her face tilted, waiting for a response from him. "Yeah. Yeah! Of course." Yoongi laughed awkwardly, scratching his neck with his free hand. My hand must be so sweaty right now..  He thought.

"We're here, yoongs." Y/N let go of the hold she had on his hand. "Oh right, right." He took his keys out, unlocking the door. "Joon! Me and Y/N are home!" Namjoon was still on the couch, "Where's Jungkook?" Y/N was the first to ask this. "He left a while back, something about drugs." Namjoon said it was something he was used to saying. "Drugs? That bitch does drugs?" Yoongi snorted. "Yes Y/N, drugs. Now come on lets watch a movie." "Yeah Y/N" Yoongi put on a bright smile, dragging Y/N over to the couch. "Yeah, yeah. Fine. Let's watch a movie."

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