YOUNG & NAIVE // BILLIE EILISH

Is it already seven years?

- IS IT ALREADY 7 YEARS? –
-Billie's life-

You got good life but you wasted it because you decided to be confused with what you want. You chose the easy way out to make sure the community doesn’t judge you. You are afraid of your own shadows and decided to wear a mask. You prefer to hurt someone you truly love or so you said it. You said you love her but you never took the time to get to know her. You said you love her but you don’t even care to know her parents.

And most importantly, you said she is your true love but you really cheated behind her. You are heartless but you refused to admit it, so you used up all your chances on her by telling lies. You got the most selfless girlfriend in the world and if only you are brave enough, you would be happy with her. Now you can just sit and dream your “what if” future rather than have it for real.

Billie regretted her actions but she knows it is too late for all that. It has been seven years since she last saw Ciel. When Billie received the letter, the next day she came to Marco wanting to have a break-up. She thought she loves Marco but when Ciel is not by her side, she realized that all she does was stupidity actions to cover up the community eyes.

But after Ciel is gone, her life is tumbling down. Marco was not happy to be dumped by a girl so he threatens Billie.

“Nobody dump me Bil, I do that and not you. So don’t you dare or else I’ll Make your life suffer!”

Billie still determines to let him go and just live in regrets of letting Ciel go but Marco got other plans in his head. He got to know that Billie’s dad worked with his company in Smith Corp (Marco’s Company owned by the Rossi’s), so he told Billie that he would get her father sacked from the jobs if she ever broke-up with him.

Billie cried that day, not because she can’t break-up with Marco but because she realized what big mistake she had done. If only she only focused on Ciel, they might be on a happy journey even if it is hard.

“Remember Bil! If you initiate the break-up, I will make sure your family have nothing to eat!”

Billie was so scared she agreed to be with him even though she got no heart for it. Weeks that turned to months made Billie anxious because Marco requested to sleep with her, which she refused every time. Her cycle of friends knows about her being threatened and felt sorry for it. Denzel was always with her to help her go through the days even though he once hated her for
Doing such a thing to Ciel.

Billie knew that Denzel knows where Ciel is because she accidentally saw Denzel messaging with Ciel after a year of her disappearance. Billie tried to get the information but Denzel told her it is not Ciel. Billie wanted to read his messages but Denzel deleted every single of it upon giving it to Billie. Denzel said it is not her and just don’t bother. Denzel might be protecting Billie at all cost but whenever Billie mentioned Ciel, he seems distance towards Billie. Billie knows better not to push the wrong button with Denzel.

Billie suffered a year with Marco. Marco forced her to kiss him and when she did it, Marco kissed her hard making her lips bleed. Billie felt dirty. Billie felt like she deserved all this because of what she did to Ciel. Billie accepted her fate that she would no longer be happy.

Billie managed to stay away from Marco after a year. Only because he almost raped her. Marco wanted Billie, no doubt but that is only for her body. Other than that, he only wants to make sure Ciel is gone. Nobody knows why he hated Ciel so much. Most probably because Ciel was likeable in the school and also very good in her studies.