LOVE AND LIES || Kth

Part Eighteen

graphic description. TW for those who may not wish to read this.

The barrier shut, and he was gone.

I couldn't barely breathe, each gasp I took was painful and felt like nails on a chalkboard. Lilli's body was still on the floor, in a sea of red surrounded by the thick air.

He'd left me, and for the right reason. Each time we held each other, I loved it so much. I knew how much of a monster I was, I knew he deserved to know that.

The days after that felt meaningless. And I deserved it, I deserved to loose everything. Even if it was Taehyung, Lilli. I loved them both, with all my heart.

One day I will explain. And Taehyung will know. I just don't know when or if he'll want to see me.

But, the least I could do was get to world to forgive him.

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BREAKING NEWS

The murder case of Lucas Henderson is finally closed, with a culprit and an intention.

The culprit was found, last night, dead by their own hands with the same gun used to take the life of victim Lucas H. Their name will not be posted as for difficulty with identification purposes.

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It wasn't Lilli.

I wouldn't do that.

And no, it wasn't anyone else. I made it look like what they thought they saw, but it was not really.

I haven't been lying this whole time, I truly wanted Tae to be safe, over anything. Even if that meant my life.

I spend my days now, wandering. With no purpose.

- taehyung

"Tae, you remember when you came here for the first time?"

I open my eyes after rolling them, looking up from the sofa I'd been glued to for the past day. Ben was looking down at me, stood with a glass of water.

"The time 5 years ago or 2 weeks," I mumbled, sinking back into the warmth of the sofa that had comfortably moulded to my position.

"2 weeks, idiot," He laughed, awkwardly. I hadn't smiled at all since I arrived.

"Well then yes," I replied, sitting up and pulling my hood off.

"I just don't understand," He sighed, sitting next to me.

I didn't either. After I'd left the cafe, I ran so fast. Probably as fast as I did the first night. I was so angry, betrayed, confused. I didn't hide my face, I just didn't care anymore.

I called Ben in a panic, not knowing where to go or what to do. I was probably better off dead, but a part of me knew that I didn't want to go. It might be instinct, or stubbornness. I don't think it would be anything else.

I did tell him, and when he said he understood I just couldn't believe him. I killed someone, and I was so scared of myself.

"She loved you. There must be more to this Tae, why would she even do that? She didn't know him, she didn't know you," He pressed his fingers against his forehead.

"I'm confused too. I've never felt like this before, I feel like everyone has turned their backs on me,"

"Except me," He added.

I nodded, throwing my hand on his shoulder.

"Thank you,"

He smiled.

"We're brothers dude, I'm not leaving you to deal with this alone,"

I sighed, knowing it would be better if I did deal with it alone.

I held in my hands the phone she'd given me, not knowing whether or not she contacted me at all. That whole day was starting to mess up in my head, but I know now that I blocked her. A part of me wanted to know whether she did, but what would she say, sorry?

Pathetic.

"Tae," He said, face pale.

My heart sank, preparing myself more yet another change in my life.

"Your... your name is cleared," He uttered in disbelief, staring at his phone.

It took a couple seconds for that to truly register in my mind, followed by my own disbelief.

"What," I said, getting up and looking at his phone.

He wasn't lying. I read the article, my chest thumping as I realised the freedom that would be flooding back into my life.

I could see my family again. I could see Leo.

Maybe I could finally make it back to those unpacked boxes and rubble in the depths of my, what used to be new, apartment.