i have him now
everything i've ever wanted
but still
my mind wanders to you
but it's different
i still miss you
i still miss the beach
but
why do i miss you?
it was a pain loving you
it was dirty and cruel
and left wounds that will last decades
all those tears for what?
to occasionally see a memory of us?
to listen to our song
and not feel a thing?
i tried so hard to love you
but i don't have to try anymore
it's different
