My hero academia one-shots ( x readers)

Kirishima X suicidal!reader💔

Your quirk is shift, you can basically shift into any carnivore, but you become more wild the longer you are not in your human form. 

Trigger Warning; self harm, angst, self-doubt and swearing included

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You're overreacting. no one knows. It's fine alright! your fine. 

no. You're not fine. You can't deny it any longer. you dig your nails in your waist. trying your fucken hardest to keep yourself together. 

"I'm fine", 

you whisper, voice cracking, you won't let those tears burden anyone. I can keep it in. you repeat to yourself over in your head, your body shaking and collapsed on your dorm-room floor. You needed to punch something. you needed to vent. you sniffle and snarl at yourself. 

"your so fucken weak. get up. so what if they know, they wouldn't care less. There's nothing they can do about it!",

 you growl yourself. looking down at the razor-blade panted in your palms. you haven't done this in awhile. 

will it make you feel better? yes. 

for good? no. 

you tremble as you take off the safety cap. 

"you're weak for doing this-",

 you grunt as you open a old wound, the slice clean.

"it'll leave a scar and I'll never do it again- argh!", 

another painfully slow swipe.

 you repetitively listened to the slicing sound. heart beating in your ears. you'd always say you'd stop. you'd always think that your weak for doing this. you let a tear fall.

"so what if I cut! so what if my life is shit!", you start to get carried away, your forearms covered in pure red. you let more tears fall. 

"am I supposed to be happy? cause it sure as hell doesn't feel like it", you hick, now feeling stupid. you're talking to yourself. you laugh in a sadistic way. you felt like a bad fan-fiction. unreal. You scowl and scratch your nails over your new wounds. you wince at the stupid thing you've just done- you hear a knock on your locked door.

"hey (y/n)... please open the door, your parents... why., never mind, we dont have to talk about it. just let me in. I've got ice cream. your favourite",

It feels like your on the edge. The end so close that it's tempting. You've let everyone down with your weakness.
"Sorry, I'm busy",
you hick, the voices in your head getting louder by the second. You shutter and dig your nails deeper into the skin of your waist. The cresants now bleeding.

"(Y/n) , I'm coming in",

The crash of your door being barged open didn't even make you flinch. You sit there in shame in front of ejirou kirishima. Your forever crush. The blood staining the carpet and your heart served on a platter. He stands there. Shocked, angry, annoyed, sad. careless, You really didn't know.

"Why?", He murmurs. You swallow. The colour in your eyes fadeing. You didn't care. You promised to never cry and look where that got you. The bottle of hidden emotions is revealed to be a complete mess. You hate yourself more than you hate your parents. You could never deal with their jokeing insults, you could never deal with it when they told you that you were ugly or look bad. It's your fault.
"(Y/n)" his voice breaks and you realise that he's crying. The tears rolling down his cheeks shamelessly.
"This.. is not-t.. manly", he stutters out, he finally reached for you.

"I-I thought you were happy (y/n), you promised me that you were happy. (Y/n), how cruel have they been to you? ",

He holds you and sobs, you lay there emotionless. Ending it seemed highly likely. He breaths in a Shakey breath.

"I've failed you. I believed you. Why (y/n), just why?", You were over it. But the grip on your waist loosens at his comfort. You finally find your words.

"I'm fine",
You murmur. He'd never believe you but you let it hang in the air. The sweet lie you've been saying all your life as an excuse.

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SUicIde Is paInLess!

Don't kill yourselves. People care, k? Even when they don't know what the hell their doing, people luv ya. And if that ain't true. I'd be happy to care 4 you.

Piece out!