Randomly Me

Shun and Eita

*Characters from Unspeakable pain

Shun POV

My Aniki is my hero, the most precious person in my life. When he drifted away from me and built a great wall around him, it's makes me sad. I know he hiding something from me, I know he is in pain, but he pushes me away. All I can do is worried about him, treat his wound, and sometimes scold him from time to time, I'm not mad at him tho, though more like I'm mad at myself, for not being strong enough or trustworthy for him to rely on me or share his burden. It frustrated me, until I realise, that I am the source of his misery, that I am the only one, the cure for his unspeakable pain.  

When I kiss his lips, he cries but didn't push me away, when I deepen the kiss, he keeps muttering the word I'm sorry, his lips are so soft, salty from his tears, I can taste the iron and ointment that I apply earlier. But none of it can stop me now, I want him, and the fact that he longed and lusted for me all these years saddened and angered me. It woke my urge to dominate him. 

When I pull him in my arm and he melted in my embrace, that was when all my sanity throw out of the windows. I make love to him, pour all my heart, feeling, and lust that I don't even know exists until now. I'm obsessed is an understatement, I'm so thirsty and hungry for him, I crave his body, his touch, his voice calling my name, his smile, his love, his longing, his lust, and all of his mixed feeling toward me. 

I make love to him all night, to satisfy our hunger for each other, to convince him that I do, feel the same as he feels. That I do love him and only him, that I don't feel remorse for fucking my own stepbrother. That he didn't ruin my future, that he didn't ruin me, that from now on, he can rely on me, share his burden because even if I'm younger, I'll become the man that he can rely on. 

I make love to him until he passes out, I hug him tight as we fall asleep. My dear Aniki, my one and only, the love of my life. I will love you forever, I promise I'll become stronger, so no one can ever hurt you. I'll make you proud of me, of us, and of our love. I'll take care of you like how you take care of me. I promise you, so don't ever say that you are sorry for loving me, for wanting me for yourself. Please be selfish and own me, put a tag on me and make me yours for the rest of our life

"I love you...Eita" I whispered in his ear, snuggling on his nape, inhaling his sweet scent, and planting a soft and gentle kisses 

"My dear... dear Aniki"