Everyone says that life can't be fair to every single soul on this planet. If it wad fair to anyone, then that what be a miracle and it would end up being unfair anyway so why wish for life to be fair if in the end it's going to end up being unfair anyway.
Many people have told me this but I also cane up with this solution in my head. You spend alot of time thinking during lockdown in a pandemic that nobody really cares about anymore. It's kind of shitty if you think about it. These last two years haven't been years. They've just been days thay go by and another reminder that we have to live through something that shouldn't mentally affect us anymore.
If that's the case, then why does it to some people? The covid-19 may have taken people away from us and tore them away from our lives, never allowing us to see or let them into our lives again, but it has also brought us to some people closer. Closer than we expected. People say this generation is a fuck up, but what's really the fuck up's are the people giving this generation false hope and expecting us that one day the world would be cured not just from covid-19, but also poverty, democracy and so on.
I'm 14, turning 15 soon. I was born in a high crime part of my town where murders, theft and gunshots were a normal and regular thing to hear and hear about throughout the day. It was uncommon to hear the neighbors shouting at eachother, or to hear people coming past our house late at night from the bar, walking up the stairs, as brunk ad can ever be, and saying inappropriate curse words that I didn't understand at the time. All of this was normal for me.
Not that I remember much though, I was very very young. That's why I probably remember being so happy there. I never understood what was going on so I never had a reason to be scared or worried about anything, so I didn't really have a choice but to be happy. I didn't grow up in the most luxurious life either, but when my parents could give, they gave.
I think that's why I'm the way I am the way I am today. I don't expect much from my family. All I expect them to do is look after me. That's all, and that's what they do. They're pretty good at it. They've taught me everything I need to know. My manners, words, ect.
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I never really had any friends growing up. I've never needed them. I've never found the need to satisfy myself in the presence of other people when I could and can still occupy myself very damn well easily. I've never really been one to be able to make a bunch of friends and stick with them. It's kind of sad if you think about it. Sure, I missed out on alot of socail skills and socail things but I never really found a need for it at the time. I used to be the kid in pre-school that used to sit by the jungle gym alone and play in the sand, being totally satisfied by it that it would be almost impossible to get me back inside from doing that.
As sad qs it does sound, I promise you it's really not that bad. Another reason why I never really had any friends when I was younger was because I never really got along with alot of people my life had been surrounded by nearly everyday. I found then to be rich snobs who thought they deserved much more than people who they thought were below them because we didn't have as much money as they did, and unfortunately, I was one of those people. The people that they picked on and bullied because they thought that they were higher than me because they had more money. I honestly didn't care about the money. I don't know why they did.
Why should little kids shouldn't have to worry about money at such a young age? It's irrelevant. But that's just my opinion. Not that it matters much anyway. Little kids should be playing outside with sticks and stone and playing games like "teacher teacher" and "on on". They shouldnt have to worry about when they're going to go inside to play on their new gadgets, gizmos and technology. Or going inside to binge watch they're new favorite TV shows and movies.
But instead, that's how they spend it. They spend it in ways in which things negatively impact their lives. They live and spend their time bringing down other people about the amount of money they have, the clothes they wear and the way they live. They find amusement in the most disturbing ways when they can't find the main source of their amusement which is an unhealthy drug for them, like when adults smoke and get addicted to cigarettes. The same thing with young kids, with their technology and money is the same as a cigarette for an adult who smokes everyday of their life.
This is why most sensible kids and adults hate this generation so much. Because it's riddle with the wrong energy which is being emanated off of almost everyone and everything they're surrounded by. I feel sorry for these people. These people have to watch the people and things around them waste their lives as though it means nothing to them, and what hurts the most for these people who are watching, what hurts the most is the fact that all they can do is stand around and watch what's happening. Unfortunately for them, their TV shows are watching people waste their lives away with no care in the world.
They have to watch these people be manipulate by a so called "reality that isn't true which is shown to then through screams that is ruining their lives. They mistaken reality to be a fantasy that will never exist. They're creating impossible expecting in which they had seen through a screen and spend almost forever waiting for them to be reached and to happen but in the end of it all, the end up disappointed and confused and wonder what they did wrong and wonder what had they done to deserve this horrible life that they don't want.
This is their reality and this is the reality sensible people have to watch. It's sad. I'm sorry to everyone.
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