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eleven

tw: 

you're not suppose to be on your period while pregnant.

my chest heavies as my hands shake while starting down at the tissue with blood on it in the toilet, i feel my knees budge as i fall on the floor.

kaiya rushes in falling on her knees in front of me and immediately takes me in her arms making me sob on her chest, she doesn't bother asking questions but tightens her arms around me.

after what feels like forever i finally feel myself calm down, i almost blacked out during a panic attack but i knew kaiya got me. my throat is sore and my chest feels heavy.

"how about i run you a bath baby?" kaiya asks, her voice hoarse and cracks slightly. i nod against her chest making me nod, she flushes the toilet before i can look in it and sits me on the counter as she gets the tub ready.

"can i undress you and clean you up?" i nod silently and helps me take off my clothes except my underwear.

"close your eyes for me baby" i close my eyes tightly as she takes off my underwear and cleans me up before i hear the toilet flush and she helps me in a tub.

i watch her take my underwear and clean it up in the sink before throwing it in the dirty clothes load before coming to take a sit on the floor against the tub.

her hand enters the water and she rubs my stomach softly making me close my eyes at the aching in my heart, she places her other hand behind my head for more comfort.

if feels like we sat like that for hours, no words said at all before she helps me out and dresses me before putting me in bed and cleans herself.

she spoons me as both our hands were rubbing my stomach.

i knew what this meant.

i just don't want to believe it.  

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