Where it hurts!

Its your girl Tamar Braxton!

Am Tamar Braxton, and all my life I've wanted to become a singer, and that's all I've ever wanted to do, is sing! I've been dating this guy named Jackson for about 1year now, and I really do like him, but... He doesn't seem to want me near him, in the mall, I shouldn't even hold his hand at all, I've never ever met his parents and better yet, he keeps on telling me "soon" the world will now about us... He doesn't wanna meet my parents and I just really don't know what's up with him... I mean his my first boyfriend that I've ever been with so long, I just don't understand him at all!!

•Sunday morning|| 8am•
It's Sunday morning, and yall know what we always do before a nice Sunday lunch... That's right go to church and that's exactly what we are gonna do, I hooped in the shower and then got out I then finished up and got ready, just like I had to, being the youngest I would always take the longest... I mean, I need to look BEAT hunty!!

Trina: *yelling from downstairs*
Tamar come on!!!

Tamar: *yelling from upstairs*
Am coming!!!! Am just wearing my shoes!!!

I then made my way downstairs and joined them all in the car, we then went to church! Since Toni was all the damn way in L.A recording and doing what she does best it was just us 4girls and Mikey! But since Trina already had Eric she was so busy being a mom, and Traci who was expecting was also being a very cute pregnant lady, they were just so cute doing what they do best, we had finally arrived at the church, I got out and made my way to the door, then Jackson called me

Jackson: *calling her*
Tamar!!! Wait on me!

I then waved at him and waited for him at the door... He then came up to me, I then wanted to hug him but he then you pushed me away

Tamar: *backs away*
What's wrong with you Jackson?

Jackson:
Nothing, we just can't be hugging each other in front of a church like this

Tamar:
Why?? I see nothing wrong with two people that's in a relationship hugging each other

Jackson:
Yeah!! But your dad might see us, or your sisters!

Tamar: *looks at him in a weird way*
Am starting to think you don't wanna be seen with me

Jackson:
No it's not that... *gets interrupted*

Tamar:
Then what is it!?

Jackson:
Let's just wait your only 17 we shouldn't rush anything

Tamar:
Ok!! If you say so!

I then held his hand, but he immediately removed it from mine, I then decided to leave him and go inside, I then went to sit next to Towanda, and then the choir came out and sang, since daddy was preaching, I decided to sing along with the choir, I went up, and started singing, since Toni wasn't here any longer they had decided to make me lead... After choir I went to sit down, I then looked back to see how Jackson was doing, and then I saw him get up and go out

Tamar:
Excuse me yall

Towanda:
Where you going?

Tamar:
I need some fresh air

Trina:
It's cool Tamar, you don't have to explain yourself just go!

I then got up and went outside, when I got outside I couldn't see Jackson anywhere... And then I decided to go around the church, I then found him seated on the steps of the churches back door, I then wanted to call him, but then I saw him pull out a packet of weed...

Tamar:
Jackson!!!!! Not by the church!!!

Jackson:
Tamar!! *hiding the weed* what are you doing outside *getting up* I thought you were inside!

Tamar:
I was! But when I saw you get up, I then decided to follow you

Jackson:
You shouldn't have!

Tamar:
We're you about to smoke weed?

Jackson:
No!! I was gonna get rid of them!

Tamar: *looking confused*
Oh really!! Why did you have weed in the first place?

Jackson:
It was my moms! She... She... I tried to stop her but she wouldn't, just... Let's go inside

Tamar: *confused*
Ok!!

As we entered the church he sat down and I went to sit down to