Mutifandom One Shots

Natasha sorta sad

In the stars
Warning mentions of abuse!!
This fic may seem a little confusing but it's you the reader looking back on your life after bats death all the way up until your own

I found my way to her grave sitting beside it “hey Nat I missed you, a lot you always taught my that it was good to say goodbye and let go but I can’t let go of you it hurts really bad” I whispered pulling a paper out my pocket
“this is the dumbest thing I’m ever going to do but I know how you always liked my little songs so uhm I wrote this one about you”

Sunday mornings were your favorite I used to meet you down on Woods Creek Road You did your hair up like you were famous Even though it’s only church where we were going Now Sunday mornings, I just sleep in It’s like I buried my faith with you I’m screaming at a God, I don’t know if I believe in ‘Cause I don’t know what else I can do

I took a breath before I started to strum again getting flashbacks of all our memories together

I’m still holding on to everything that’s dead and gone I don’t wanna say goodbye ‘cause this one means forever Now you’re in the stars and six feet’s never felt so far Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers Oh, it hurts so hard for a million different reasons You took the best of my heart and left the rest in pieces

I remembered the day I got down on one knee to spend the rest of my life with the girl I loved five months before the blip

Digging through your old birthday letters A crumpled twenty still in the box I don’t think that I could ever find a way to spend it Even if it’s the last twenty that I’ve got

I remembered giving her that twenty on her birthday watching her smile grow at the stupid 20 for 20 joke I made as she ran over hugging me

I’m still holding on to everything that’s dead and gone I don’t wanna say goodbye ‘cause this one means forever Now you’re in the stars and six feet’s never felt so far Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers Oh, it hurts so hard for a million different reasons You took the best of my heart and left the rest in pieces

I wiped the tears that started to fall looking back at her grave

I’m still holding (on), holding (on), holding on
I’m still holding (on), holding (on), holding on
I’m still holding (on), holding (on), I’m still holding on
I’m still, ooh, still holding on
I’m still holding on to everything that’s dead and gone

I don’t wanna say goodbye ‘cause this one means forever Now you’re in the stars and six feet’s never felt so far Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers Oh, it hurts so hard for a million different reasons You took the best of my heart and left the rest in pieces

I finished the song looking up to see everyone cheering for me and hearing their screams feel my ears as they flooded me with support.
I remembered the day I first sung this song to her grave and then to Yelena and Clint, Steve and Bruce.
I remembered all the support they gave me through her death and how they helped me hold my head high even when it felt heavier then the world it’s self.

“we love you Natasha, rest well my love” I said holding our little girls hand as she placed a flower on Nats grave “say bye to mommy” I watched as she waved her little hand.

"Honestly Clint, we're doing fine but thank you for watching her" I hugged him as he hugged me back "if you ever need to escape this relationship, I'm here" he whispered "I'll give you a call" I smiled walking back to the car.

"I don't know if I can do this, I just needed to forget Natasha!" I set the engagement ring down my hands shaking "Y/n, if you need to tell her you can" Clint said as Steve agreed "it's not that easy, I wish I could just escape this is worse than the fights I suffered as an Avenger" I cried as Steve hugged me "Nat wouldn't want you to deal with this" he whispered as I nodded my head.

I looked around seeing my friends who had become family and my daughter standing at my bedside "I love you guys, and if I don't make it out of this surgery I'll be with Nat finally" I smiled as I was wheeled away.

"Welcome home love" My wife's voice said as I ran over hugging her "we don't look saggy and old at least!" I exclaimed as she laughed walking with me.