Crybaby Tales | by Jasmin (Bl0bjazzy) |

Carousel

It wasn't easy being the only one in the relationship that said "I love you". I tried so hard to get him and impress him. It isn't fair. I found out he was sleeping with the girl that goes to his old school. Was I not enough for him? Were my commitments all for nothing. I feel like I'm in a carousel of love when I'm with him. Sometimes he's sweet, sometimes he's mean, but he has a good way of manipulating me. Will I ever catch up to his love? Will I ever catch up to him? I see him enter the school as if he wasn't making her give him head last night at the carnival. He knew I loved carnivals, he knew that was my spot, and he took her there. I don't like carnivals anymore. I don't like that spot anymore. I don't like him anymore. I'm sick of being stuck on this carousel ride with him. I walk up and confront him. Of course he denies it all. And then come excuses. I break up with him and leave. I don't understand why he stays with me if he has her. He stole my cotton candy heart and put it in that damn coin slot. In my school, he's there. At the grocery store, he's there. In my dream's, he's there. More like nightmares to be honest. Then, I wake up in his bed, realizing it was all just a dream. Of course I would never get the guts to leave him. He would hurt me, more than he already has. I guess I'm still stuck on this carousel ride. Carousel...