Start of something new *Jungkook ff*

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Jungkook's POV:

 
He wakes up and sees Y/N asleep beautifully putting his hand on her check admiring her. Then I walked around her house seeing if I can learn more about her. Maybe I should ask her would that be worried for her for me to? Am I overthinking this I mean the sighs are all there that we like each other. There's no reason for me not to. No I want to know right now I get up and looked around the house while thinking where is a good place to find out about her? I entered what seem to be a bedroom and looked around saw pictures of a little girl and I chuckled this must be her when she was younger. Then I see a stuffed animal on the bed it was a stuffed Guinea pig animal I lightly laughed on how cute it was. Then saw her makeup bag on her desk it just had counselor, foundation, bronzer, blush, lip bam and a mascara wow she doesn't wear a lot of makeup unlike the other girls. I open the drawer and saw a bunch of writing tools and a diary underneath it. I took it and started reading it.

Dear,

     Hello I don't know how to start this but my mom suggested I should start writing my thoughts and feelings that I'm feeling so I thought maybe to start one it wouldn't hurt to try right? Anyways how am I? I honestly don't know how to feel or what I should feel I had the most complicated relationship with my best friend and I miss him so much. We grew up together till we were 11 years old but then he had to move and I was left alone with no one to talk to. No one to play with no one to feel safe with and no one to relate with. I'm now 15 and it still pains me more then you can ever know I feel as if my feelings are getting lost even more then the previous day. Yesterday I couldn't take it anymore so I stopped eating at all but it doesn't stop my thoughts where is he? is he okay? is he eating? is he laughing? how is he feeling? is he thinking about me too? so many questions but no answers I tried so many times to call his house phone but the number changed so I called his parents there numbers changed as well. Why can't I reach him he feels so close in my heart but so far away how is this feeling possible this is the only feeling left inside of me the feeling of unsureness. Every time I look out my window I see him running around smiling laughing telling me to join him I reached out but he diapered. Why ..why did you leave  me alone when I needed you to protect me.

          Please protect me from myself- Y/N

I  looked out the window and sigh man how hard this was for her I wonder who was he? why did he leave her? I went to the next page there was a picture of her and the little boy on a swing set together trying to see the blurry photo to see who is that little boy then it hits me. 

It's me I'm that little boy in that picture

Jungkook: Y/N?

I quickly put the book to where I found it exactly the way it was before and went to her she was still sleeping how did I not recognize you for so long? I'm sorry Y/N for leaving you I will never leave you again I promise. The amount of years that have passed by and then it made since the stuffed animal is the one that I gave her. I gave her a Guinea Pig stuffed animal because when she laughs she sound like a Guinea pigs who is winking. It was our little side joke and that's how I came up with the nickname for her guinea I looked at her and place a soft kiss on her cheek. 

Jungkook: Hey Guinea I'm back I promise not to leave you again 

I said to her softly in her sleep and then I sat in a chair next to her and waited for her to wake up.