The Reputation Trap

1.7

Ramona's POV

I found my razor and sat on the bath tub. I grabbed my arm and took the razor. I started to cut a little. Then, I suddenly just froze. Everything I was thinking about disappeared. I threw the razor across the room and stood up. I took some stuff from the counter and threw it to the mirror. Then, someone comes running inside.

"Ramona!" Someone said. I turn around and Ross was staring at me in shock. I walk backwards til my back hit the wall. I slide down and put my knees up to my chest. Ross walks over to me and sits down next to me. Tears started to roll down my cheeks.

"I don't know what happened." I said. Ross sighed. He looks around and spots my razor. Oh no. He grabs it and looks at me.

"You tried to do it, didn't you?" He said, angrily. I stood up and slowly started to walk out the door. Ross just followed me. I walked into my room and sat on the bed. He stands in front of me, furiously.

"You cut yourself behind my back, even when I told you not to!" He yelled. More tears started to run down my cheeks.

"Please Ross! It was an accident! I didn't know what I was thinking!" I yelped. Ross shook his head.

"You know what? Bullshit!" He yelled, throwing the razor. I flinched when he yelled. He got close to me and slapped me across the face. I gasp and put my hand on my cheek. Ross huffs and puffs.

"I told you not to, but you had to do it anyway!" He spat. I stood up and went right in front of his face.

"Get the hell out of my house. I never want to speak to you again." I yelled. He walked out, slamming the door. I sat on my bed and started crying my eyes out.

Ross' POV

I stormed out of Ramona's house. All I did was try to stop herself from killing herself and she did it anyway! Now I'm furious with her.

I walked into the house and Riker quickly stood up.

"Did you talk to her?" He asked, desperately. I rolled my eyes.

"No. I fucking hate her." I spat. I went upstairs and went into my room. I locked the door and sat on the floor. I pull on my hair and start to cry. I hit her. I hit her. I saw the fear in her eyes. Great. Now she's scared of me and Riker. I hate her so much. She's not innocent anymore. Which makes me hate her even more.

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2 days later

Ramona's POV

These past days, I've been crying for hours. And been cutting too. Now today is Monday, and I have to face my fears. Ross and Riker.

I put on a comfy black hoodie and some black leggings with black converse. I put my hair in a messy ponytail and only put on mascara. I was too weak and tired to do anything else. I grab my backpack and walk to school.

I arrived at school and saw Ross walking down the hall with Damian. Ross glares at me and punches my books out of my hand. They both started laughing.

"Bitch." Ross said to me. Then they walked away. I let out a sigh and walked to class.

*

"Please, Ramona! Please listen to me!" Riker begged, following me and sitting next to me at a lunch table. I roll my eyes and face him. His eyes were bloodshot.

He was crying.

"There's nothing to talk about, Riker." I said.

"Yes there is! Now, I don't care if you don't frickin' want me back but at least hear me out!" He said. I sighed and hesitated for a minute.

"Fine." I said. He sighed in relief and nods.

"Look. I was just talking with Rocky then this guy came up and offered us drinks. So he gave us drinks. It was punch but it was spiked. So Rocky and I got really drunk. Then next thing I know, I wake up in a bath tub. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to get drunk. I don't want you to be scared of me." Riker explained. My mouth opened but I closed it. I couldn't speak. I was so stubborn to think he actually decided to drink beer but... He did the same thing I did. I look down at the floor.

"I got drunk too." I softly said. Riker lifted my chin up.

"I drank punch but it was spiked." I said. Riker pulls me into a hug. God, I did miss his warm hugs. We pull back.

"I'm so sorry, Riker. I was so stupid-" Riker cut me off by leaning in and kissing me. It was a really passionate kiss. He pulls back and our foreheads touch.

"I really missed you. I was crazy without you." He whispered. I smiled wide.

"Aww!" Rocky cooed. We turn to look at Rocky who was smirking at us. I stick my tongue at him and Rocky chuckles. I glance over at the other side of the room and saw Ross, staring at me. When we made eye contact, he immediately looked away. I looked back at Riker. He smiled at me and I smiled back too.

*

After lunch, I grab my books and other stuff I needed for my last class. I close my locker but I didn't like who I saw when I turned around. It was Selena and Tyrel.

"Ready for your surprise, bitch?" Tyrel asked. I raised an eyebrow and then they gripped on my arms. I bit my lip and wince, because they were gripping on my cuts.

"OH, ARE WE HURTING YOUR CUTS?" Selena said, very loudly so everyone in the hallway could hear. Everyone stopped and looked at me. The hallway became quiet and everyone crowded over us. I tried pulling my arm but I was too weak.

"Aren't we right, Ramona?" Tyrel said. I look at the crowd and saw Riker, Rydel, and Rocky, staring at me with shocked eyes. I look at the other side and saw Ross, smirking at me. I looked back at Selena and Tyrel.

"No." I said, loudly.

"Oh really?" Tyrel asked. Then they started to take off my bracelets.

"No!" I yelped. They didn't stop. Then, they both started to take off my bandages. I looked up at the ceiling, wincing in pain and trying to get my tears to go back in. Everyone gasped, even me, when they revealed my cuts and scars.

"See! Ramona Lake cuts! A lot! And she's just a little bitch, trying to get attention by hurting herself!" Tyrel confessed. I closed my eyes and look at the ground.

"Isn't that right, Ramona?" Tyrel asked. I look at Ross, he had a smirk on his face but once he saw my bloodshot eyes, the smirk went away and turned into a sad face. I look at the crowd and some people were giggling, whispering, shaking their heads. I look over at Riker. He looked scared and shocked. Rydel was crying and Rocky had the same reaction as Riker's.

"It's not my fucking fault for cutting. It's all because of you!" I said. Selena kicked me in the stomach.

"Shut your mouth. Or we'll kill you." She whispered in my ear. I nudged both of my elbows in their faces and they both let go.

"You bitch!" Tyrel yelled. I looked at everyone. They were just shocked. I went through the crowd and pushed everyone out of my way and ran out the school. I heard people calling my name from the inside but I completely ignored them.

Now everyone knows my secret.

No. I'm gonna cry for some reason. And I swear I might punch Ross Lynch if I ever meet him. He'll probably might not know why I punched him but whatever. 😂😔

-stephanie