I'M STUCK

Prologue

My life is a mess! Simula nang mamatay ang lola ko, maghiwalay ang magulang ko. Naging magulo na rin ang buhay ko. I'm living with my mother but she already has her new family, yes I have them physically but mentally I'm alone.

Sa lahat ng nangyari sa buhay ko hindi ko alam kung paano ko na kaya lahat kasi every single day I feel giving up.

Nasa kwarto ako ngayon with my little sister. When she was born in some reason I want to hold on in life. In my life right now siya na lang ang magandang nangyari sa buhay ko. I'm used to reading books just to make myself comfortable at para maiiwasan ang mga negative thoughts ko. I heard my mom talking to someone with her phone and when I heard those words coming from her my world stopped.

"Ang tamad tamad ng bata na yan, hindi marunong sa buhay minsan nga nahihiya nalang ako sa asawa ko.."

" Lagi nalang yan naka harap sa laptop niya wala ng ginagawa"

I can't control my tears. I'm.... I'm shock of all people hindi ko inaasahan na sa nanay ko mismo marinig lahat ng yan. All  my life, I work hard to make her proud. I study hard just to be on top of the class because I know that's the only thing that could make her proud.

I get my phone and start typing wala akong pake alam kahit nabasa na ng luha ko yung cellphone ko.

Aze: I heard my mom talking to someone. AHAHAHA she said ang tamad tamad ko daw.

I wipe my tears as I wait for Luna to respond. Luna is my everything. My girlfriend, my best friend, and sometimes my mom, when I need someone to talk to, she's always there to comfort me, motivate me, and make me happy when I am sad. I looked at my phone when I heard it beep, and I knew it was Luna

Luna: Coming from her talaga? Ikaw na  consistent honors student at taga bantay ng kapatid mo na halos ikaw na ang kinikilalang magulang ni Scarlet.

Again hindi ko na naman mapigilang umiyak. Since I live with my mother and with her second family nandito lang ako lagi sa bahay nag aalaga ng kapatid ko while doing my online class stuff. Strict ang mother ko, she doesn't allow me to go outside and have fun with my friends even going to school for my school requirements I am not allowed. I envy my friends kasi grabe yung trust ng parents nila sa kanila. Their parents let them be independent. I'm already 18 turning 19 this June and turning college next school year but still my mom won't allow me to do things on my own. All my life I depend on her will, I want to be a lawyer but she wants me to be a CPA. I sent my response to Luna and let out a heavy sigh.

Aze: I'm full of criticism and judgment not just from other people but also from my relatives and now from my own mother. I can't take this any more, Luna.