I'M STUCK

Chapter 3

How many years have passed and I thought it was an answered prayer but to my surprise it was the start of downfall. Having a happy family is just a delusion. One big happy family was never meant for me.

Many things happened before I came back. Scenes in my life that I won't dare to look back on.

It was the month of June and it's been 4 years since the tragedy happened. My grandmother died because of heart failure and other health complications. Namatay siya ng hindi manlang kami nakapag usap. I never thought that my one last hug for her would be that painful. Seeing her lying in a hospital bed with a cold body, life less. Sobrang sakit, sana ako nalang.

After months when my lola died and still healing and grieving. I received a call na sana ni-reject ko nalang, a news that brought so much trauma in my life. My parents separated, my mother already had her second family and she will be having a baby.

Hindi ko maisip na at my young age my life will be that miserable. A joyful young lady who always wears the sweetest smile is suffering from depression and all she had that time was herself. She is a strong woman, a good artist who knows how to hide everything in just a smile.

Not until I met Luna Solace Gatlin. My moon, my everything. A living angel sent by God for me to have reason to live. I'm at the SSC office doing some paperworks for the upcoming big event. Masyado pang maaga but I need to accomplish all the remaining papers that need to be signed by the university Office of Student Affairs. I look at my phone when I feel it vibrate, I can't help but smile as I see my lock screen wallpaper and who messages me. It's Luna, my long-time crush.

Luna: Andito ako sa labas

Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat ko maramdaman. Kinikilig ako na kinakabahan na nahihiya. I composed myself bago lumabas. I'm speechless, hindi talaga mahahalata sa features niya ngayon na babae siya kaya hindi ko masisi yung iba na pinagkakamalan siyang lalaki. Ang pogi niya at the same time maganda, sobrang unfair.

"ahh – Hii" I shyly greeted her with a big smile on my face. She's looking at me and she's also smiling Lord God I'm gay!

"Hello" I'm mesmerized kahit yung boses nakakatunaw.

Hindi masyadong nag tagal si Luna kasi mag sta-start na ang training nila. Yes, she is part of the university women's volleyball team. The reason why I keep eyeing sa gym, para makita siya. Kaya nga sobrang hindi ako makapaniwala na yung crush ko abot kamay ko na ngayon na dati makapag pa picture lang ako masaya na ako. She restores my genuine smile, after all the heartaches na nangayri sa life ko hindi ko akalain na andyan siya that will add colors to my life.

Luna means moon and she gives light in my darkest life. Solace means comfort and when everything is heavy she gives me comfort