Bittersweet

a promise

Since the day you passed

Time has gone by in a blur

I speak a lot

But barely utter a word

Over the years my heart yearns

Wondering if you're at that door

I still remember when you that promise

Promising to be the brother you couldn't be before I was thirteen

But now that you're gone the words have gone bleak

An empty promise that drained in the sink

Now that sink is full but not of promises

It is full of lies and tears

Over time, I couldn't help but wonder if those words you spoke were always true

If there was any way I could comfort you

You were there for me but I wasn't for you

Guess I've always been the selfish one but I must say...

The most selfish aspect about me is that I wish you never went away

And had lived to see another day