A Part Of Me Is Lost (Hamilton OC Story/ Au)

''~Chapter 3~''

{{the second Isa's pov, is a bit angsty, and it will remind you of Stay Alive (Reprise) so be warned :') and there is death I'll bold it or put it in italics or both}}

Nothing gold really can stay

Isabel's Pov

Three weeks into school already. It's been good. For one of our classes we had to read a book of our choice. I chose to read The Outsiders, By S.E. Hinton. I was on chapter 6 in 2 days. When I was at a certain part, this poem stuck out to me.

"Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay." -Robert Frost

"Oooh Isaaaaaaaa" Laurens said, coming into my room when I was reading the poem. Pretty sure I have him the death glare. "What, John?" "I've got good newssss!" I looked at him, "what is it?" "I got a perfect score on my test for Mr Washington's class!" I smiled and nodded, "good job, John" "whatcha reading?" He asked me "my book of choose for Ms Mani" "WE HAD TO READ A BOOK FOR HER CLASS?!" I nodded. I seen him silently panicking. I closed the book and walked over to him, "it's okay, just choose a book you've read a thousand times and say that's the book you chose, John." I said to him, in a calm, collected way. "That's smart, thanks! But how are you so calm and collected about it?" "John, I have three younger siblings, and a younger twin brother, I know how to be calm" We looked eyes for a split second then we both looked away. "Is it alright if I stay in here for a bit?" He asked. "Sure!"

That poem had me thinking. Especially the 'Nothing Gold Can Stay" what's it mean?

"BAM" "LAURENS I SWEAR- oh hey Alex-" He bust in. Gosh dang it. Just lost my train of thought. "Guess what you guys" "What?" Laurens and I said. Except, John was enthusiastic, I wasn't. He interrupted my thinking about the poem so now I have to restart my thinking. "Y'know how Eliza and I have liked each other? Well we're finally together!" Alex said happily. I smiled, "good job, The Tomcat got a girlfriend" "Hey!" John said defensively "Only I can call him that"

John's pov

I was sitting beside Isa on her bed just playing a game on my phone. I looked up and she was like deep, deep in thought. I asked her if she was okay, don't think she heard me. I think this might just be me, but she looked even prettier when she was in thought like that. I'm scared to ask her if she liked me. If she liked anyone for that matter. "BAM" And there was Alex, he bust in. "LAURENS I SWEAR- Oh hey Alex-" Isa said, she made me jump. "Guess what guys!" "What!?" I said it enthusiastically, Isa not so much. "Y'know how Eliza and I have liked each other? Well we're finally together!!" I smiled, and Isa took the words right out of my mouth; "good job, The Tomcat got a girlfriend" "Hey! Only I can call him that!" I said defensively. Only to see them both smile, but I seen Isa's smile more than Alex's. "Hey Alex?" He looked at me, "yeah, John?" "Can I talk to you in the hall or something?" I got up and walked out to the hall before he could even respond. I had sat on the ground, I wanted to cry for who knows why.

Alexander's pov

"Dude, just tell her how you feel! It isn't hard :)" I told John. "Haha easier said than done, you know how awkward I can be, I'm even awkwarder when trying to tell someone something. Not gonna happen." He said. "John, pull yourself together and ask her if she likes someone." I said to him and he just nodded.

When Laurens and I went back in Isa was in tears. "Isa! What's wrong? Are you ok?" I asked her, no response.

Isa's pov

Once the boys had walked out I had went back to thinking about that poem, then my phone rang.

"Hello?....."I'm sorry, what?"...."this is a joke, right..?"....."thank you for calling.. I'm on my way.." and I hung up. I got up trying not to cry. My twin brother, the other half of me, the half I need, on the verge of death, he's my better half...my brother for Pete's sake.. what am I going to do without him? I rushed out of the dorm and to the hospital he was at, it was literally a ten minute walk but I was running so it just took 5 minutes, I was on my high school's track team and was the fastest girl this is really nothing for me.

I got there but John and Alex got there a minute or two after.

"Where's my brother?" I asked the doctor.

"Miss Francis, come in, they brought him in about 15 minutes ago, he was in a car wreck, by a drunk driver." The doctor told me.

"Is going to survive? Is he ok? How is he?" I asked, my brain was going a million miles an hour I felt bad for asking so many questions but I couldn't help it. He's my brother, I care for him.

"He lost a lot of blood on the way over.. He's alive right now but we aren't sure if he will survive." He said.

I started tearing up. "May I see him?" The doctor nodded.

"He's been calling for you the past 3-4 minutes." The doctor told me. I walked in and rushed over to his side.

"Isa...I'm so sorry... Don't blame yourself, I know you will..." Anthony told me. "Anthony, stop talking like your going to die, you're not going to die..!"I told him. "I know, I know, I want you to know, I love you.." "love you too, Ant" He smiled faintly. "I know I grew up sayin I wanted to die but not now, I know I'm 19 and have got to live out 19 years but I don't want to die now.. I haven't had the thrill of seeing my life flash before my eyes.." "shhh, I know I know, save your strength and stay alive, for me?" I was crying at this point, I couldn't help it. "Hey, I'll always be with you, ok?" "Stop it Ant stop talking like you are gonna die.." "The doctors say I have a very small chance of surviving.." He started to breath slowly. I started to count, one of our favorite memories we shared had to do with when our father taught us to count to 9 when we were 4, before we became orphans. "Un deux trois quatre cinq six sept huit neuf" "sept, huit, neuf" we both smiled, "Un deux trois quatre cinq six sept huit neuf" He stayed silent, He stayed silent but he hugged me and I hugged him, He faintly said to me "I love you, Isa" "Love you too, Ant.."It was then I realized, he stopped breathing, he had.. died. I was rushed out of his room. I went outside and walked to the park in tears. I got to the park, sat in the gazebo. I started bawling, I screamed a little bit too. I felt someone hug me. I'm going to be honest, I needed that hug. I seen through blurry, tearful eyes it was Laurens, I rested my head on his shoulder and just cried til I had no more tears to cry, Alex was beside me, he was trying to help. It pained me knowing my twin brother had died in my arms, that I was the last name he said, not any of his close friends, me.

Suddenly, the meaning of that poem clicked. "Nothing gold really can stay..." I mumbled "Gold is shiny, new, gold resembles new life, young life, young, when you're young, everything is new, you see life in a new way. Eventually the new shine fades, and becomes rust or old, The young slowly becomes older, and soon... Leaves.. Anthony was gold, he was young, he faded, he left.." Laurens and Alex were confused. "What do you mean? I'm confused" John and Alex said in union. "A poem I read in The Outsiders, 'Nothing Gold Can Stay' I've been thinking about it all day. That's what I've been in deep thought about all day, I finally understand what it means. It means gold is new life pretty much in summary." I responded to them. They both weren't confused anymore, they just looked amazed that I had kept my train of thought about something for more than 4 hours.

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