well.
i wanna cut my hair.
like really badly.
BUT
I HAVE CURLY HAIRAND I HATE MY CURLY HAIR
SO I STRAIGHTEN IT EVERYDAYBUT IF MY HAIR IS SHORT I WONT BE ABLE TO STRAIGHTEN IT😭😭😭😭
but i mean
i guess i can live with curly hair..
i just have to stalk pinterest and find curly ftm hair that i like and that has the same curl type as me.
BUT FOR NOW
LET ME SHOW YOU THE ORIGINAL HAIR I WANTED BEFORE I REALIZED THE WHOLE CURLY HAIR THING
like look at it ❤️🔥❤️🔥😍😍😍😍😳😳😳✨✨✨🥵🥵🥵🫦🫦🫦💗💗💗💞💞💞
anyways
here watch this masterpiece of a vine
OKAY
HELPI HAVE A FRIEND(?) BUT I KINDA WANNA DROP THEM CAUSE I FEEL TARGETED AT A FEW THINGS THEY SAY (using they/them) pronouns cause i don't wanna give away who they are) AND I THINK THEYRE GONNA DROP ME AT SOME POINT
oh well
sorry about the vent..
someone complimented my doc martens today❤️❤️❤️❤️
and then the cashier guy said he liked my nail polish colour❤️❤️❤️
and my new friend liked my slythiren ring❤️❤️
and a kid in my bus group smiled at me THREE TIMES❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
i felt so special:)
anyhow
i felt pretty masculine today.so that's cool ig.
i also had three cans of monster..
MIND YOU IT WAS MY FIRST TIME EVEN TRYING IT CAUSE MY PARENTS DONT LET ME DRINK IT
but i didn't feel any different so that's why i bought two more after the first one.
but um i saw a bunch of really pretty guys and my dysphoria hit
i wanna be pretty in the way guys are pretty
and i wanna be a guy so i can dress really feminine.
yk like skirts and croptops and knee high socks and stuff.
but nope
i'm too fat for that shit.
okay
i talked too much about my day today.
sorry mate.
cya losers
5/20/2022
YOU ARE READING
aha ha
Randommy everyday thoughts as a closeted ftm cause we all know i don't think right