aha ha

days four-six (pre-t)

shit.

i've get like shit these last two days.

i lost two friends, almost three, and i feel like blocking out everyone and just not talking.

in public ofc.

i'd much rather only have a few people to talk to. like my family. and only them.

people clearly don't like me. so why should i pretend to like them?

now. i'm gonna ask about a binder soon and i'm also probably gonna cut my hair soon as well.

i've been feeling confident(ish) with clothes recently.

i think rings and minimal necklaces are making me feel comfortable tho.

AND
i've bought some swag pins recently so now people have conversation starters with me instead of looking at me awkwardly and not knowing what to say.

so.. that's cool.
i guess.

also.
i think im comfy saying that im into kpop. A BIT. im not a crazy stan or anything, i just think a few groups are pretty cool. like blackpink and bts and straykids.

i guess i've been keeping it private cause i thought a specific someone would say shit about me cause of it.

but HA

BITCH. I CAN WATCH AND DO MY OWN SHIT NOW. IM EVEN REWATCHING RECENT JSCHLATT STREAMS IVE ALREADY WATCHED OUT OF PURE SPITE.

anyway.

v my absolute beloved<3333

okay gender crisis stage 6192737819282362942066669

n a m e

i want it something close or similar to my name. and my name started with ry. sooooo

ryan?

i like it. but i also dated a bitch named ryan and he fucking sucked.

so i don't know.

SHIT I ALSO OBSESSED OVER SOME KID I SAW AT MY SCHOOL TEHY HAD THE COOLEST NAME AND THEIR VOICE WAS SO DAMN PRETTY.

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW GOOD THEY DRESSED HOLY SHITTTTTT

ew i sound like her

okay. enough.

conan gray gives me gender envy.

and tao from heartstopper.

and rodrick heffley.

and karl jacobs.

and guys in my grade.

SHIT MAN ANY GUY WITH BLACK HAIR.

5/23/2022