Things mentioned:Suicide,suicidal thoughts,self harm,abuse,mental,physical,etc,bullying,death,homophobic,transphobic,overthinking,there's probably more I'll try to update it as I go but so far this is all I think I'm going to mention.This isn't meant to be sad or to bring back thoughts from the past.Your always going to be loved.This is truly to just spread awareness to seek help and that it's going to be ok.
MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING!!!
ONLY TO SPREAD AWARENESS!!
With tears falling gracefully down my face I took the blade across my wrist.Expecting red I saw white...
Not again...
I said underneath my breath.
Why am I like this.
Why.
JUST WHY?!
FUCKING ANSWER ME!
See no one gives a sh!t about me.
Absolutely no one.
As blood flows out of the fresh cut you slit the other wrist.Now so much blood is flowing out.
You didn't know what to do for the first time ever.
Why is there so much blood?...
What have I done....?
I start crying so hard I start to gasp for air.
Why?!
I need help.
Mom please I'm sorry I know I told you I would never give up.But I know I didn't mean in life either....
Knock,knock*
You:What!
Brother:Can I come in?
You:No go away!
Brother:Please!
You:No
Brother:I wanted to show you someth-
You:JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE!
Brother:I-I'm sorry.
You clean up in the bathroom and head to sleep.The next morning you wake up.Go to the bathroom.
Ok now let's brush our teeth?
No I'll just do it later.
You put 2 oversized hoodies on and sweatpants.
K back in the bathroom.Just brush them at night it's fine.Let's brush our hair instead?Maybe?No I don't feel like it,put your hood up.
Fine then go to school it's better than home anyways.
You go wait for the bus outside.The bus finally arrives 5 minutes late.You get on and sit in the middle by the window.
You zone off out the window really quick.
Bam*
Bully:HA!LOOK GUYS ITS THE DEPRESSED EMO KID!HAHA!!
The whole bussed laughed as she made jokes and threw your stuff around.
You:Please stop I don't want to do this now.
Bully:WELL TO BAD BECAUSE I DO!
You:BITCH I SAID NOT NOW!
Bully:WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?HUH! LOSER!
Bully:HAHAHA!!
As she laughs you swing and hit that bitch in her jaw.She falls to the ground holding her jaw as tears roll down her face.
You:NEXT TIME I SAY TO FUCKING STOP I MEAN IT!DICKHEAD!
The whole bus laughed at her this time.It felt good to finally stand up for your bully but you also felt bad because after that her friends left her.As we got to school I seen her old friends throw her stuff around.I realized what she was doing was wrong and what I did was wrong and right but I wasn't letting her get bullied because of me.
You:HEY!
Bully's:What?!
You;Stop.
Bully's:A stop doesn't make us stop.
You:K?I know a fight will.So either put her stuff down and go or I'll drag you away.Pick.Now.
Bully's:Fine!
They throw her stuff down and run away.
I get down and help her pick her stuff up and hand it too her.I walk away right after and head to the bathroom.
More bully's:Look it's the emo!What are you in here for?To hang yourself?HAHA
Everyone made fun of you because you wore the color black.But they never knew why.They made jokes about my mental health and how I didn't have a mom.
Maybe they are right.I should hang myself.After school ends you go home and grab your dads gun and head off.You go to your favorite place.You held the gun up to your head.Shaking rapidly you put your finger on the trigger.Ready to pull.
Mom,I've lost my battle.I'll see you soon I promise.I love you.
After one last deep breath you go and apply pressure to the trigger.You are so close to shooting and someone pushed the gun and you shot your shoulder instead of your head.You blacked out instantly.The next thing you remembered was seeing red and blue lights flashing as you get rushed into the hospital.Barely alive you try to open your eyes unsuccessfully.You lay there lifeless.No help,no nothing.You we're out in a room waiting for emergency surgery.A hand grab yours tightly.You try to open your eyes again.This time you succeeded.It was her,your old school bully.
Old bully:Y/N YOUR AWAKE!!!!HELP PLEASE! SHES AWAKE!
3 nurses rush into your room.Being comforted you are soon rushed to surgery.
Not knowing what's gonna happen next...
NEXT PART SOON!!
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