Hope of the future (vigilante Nozomi)

Crushed dream

Hello there! I haven't been able to write since my bad mental health acted up but I'm back!

~Recap~
It wasn't long time till he left leaving me alone again on the rooftop even though it was quiet all the time he were here it was nice I guess but soon the bell rang and that told me to get up and go to class. When I got up I felt very dizzy and black dot's took my vision and everything turned to dark.
~Recap over~

I wake up on hard floor 'what happened?' Was my first thought then I remember what happened "what time is it" I get myself up from the floor and take my phone out of my pocket and look at the time "15:48"(3:48pm) school ended already and I am late getting home. I take a look at the sky and start heading home my another hell hole.

I was walking fast since I am already late and the beating will be terrible my dad is just the worst, since I was diagnosed quirkless my dad has been abusing me nonstop and my mom she left. I can understand why she left no one wants useless son like me.
I was lost in my thought when I realised I was being held by this slime and I heard it say something "what a perfect hiding puppet" that's when I realised this is bad it was too late I couldn't breathe anymore it was trying to enter to my body through my mouth and nose, I was about to lose my conscious when something hit the slime and let me breathe again.
It was all might the number one hero the hero of all the heroes! I was freaking out I am a huge fan of his "are you alright young man?" I was freaking out I didn't know what to say "uh.. yeah.. I guess" I tried to not to panic "if you are alright I'll be going" all might was about to leave but I had question "All might!!! I have a question!" I said quickly and my surprise pretty loud. "What is it young man?"
Here it goes or nothing "can a quirkless like me become a hero?" I said it and what he said left me speechless "I am sorry but no, being hero is very dangerous and without quirk you would be dead faster than one with a quirk, maybe try think more realistic become a police or doctor" I was dumbfounded the man who inspires everyone just crushed the only thing that gave me hope and reason just crushed everything
"Oh... o-okey" and with that he just left.

I was walking home and I realised it's pretty late and I am now in very big trouble and beating would be very bad "ahh! Crap! I am late!" I started running and hoping my dad isn't home

~time skip to the front door~
I am standing right in front of my door I am panicking.. and hoping my dad would be at bar or where ever he went when he isn't home, I open door quietly and smell of alcohol hits my nose right away 'shit he's drunk and home' I close the door as quickly I opened it and try to sneak to my room.

Trigger warning ⚠️ abuse ⚠️

Everything was going well till I get beer bottle thrown to my head and by the impact I fell to the floor "YOU DAMN BRAT WHY ARE YOU LATE?!" I am bleeding from my forehead and probably also back of my head and my hair is full of glass "I- I was attacked my way home b-by a villain" I try to sound not too afraid but he scares the shit out of me "DON'T LIE TO ME YOU PIECE OF SHIT OF NOTHING!" he then proceeded to kick my stomach and continues to beat the shit out of me

Trigger warning over

When he decided he had enough he left, I don't know where nor I care.
I get myself up and head to my room to clean myself from the beating I got first thing is to get glass out of my hair and then all the blood. It took some time but I got all cleaned out.

Trigger warning ⚠️ self harm

When I was done cleaning myself up I grab my razor and start cutting

Fat

Useless

Waste of space

Loser

Quirkless

Nobody

Just die already

When I had enough my both arms were covered in blood. I started cleaning the cuts and wrapping them.

Trigger warning over

When I was done I went to my laptop, yes I have one I made it myself and it's actually pretty fast. I went to look can quirkless be a hero but with no luck till I find one article about eraserhead, I start reading it and it says he is fighting quirkless since his quirk is erasure 'maybe I can become hero? But not by law?' Next I searched vigilante's and I got idea 'Why not become vigilante? I mean I am not doing anything against the law since I don't even have a quirk in the first place?' I continued reading about vigilante's for hours till I decided that I will become one myself. I also made decision that I will disappear from earth if it meant better life and I will do it tomorrow but now I go to bed It's 2:05 (2:05am)

To be continued...