I never meant to hurt you/ AG McDaniel

Part 3

I checked my phone for what it felt
like was the 50th time. It was 3am and
I was desperately trying to fall asleep.
Of course I couldn't. My brain
wouldn't stop thinking and making
me believe that I'd have a chance with Ag.

I was overthinking everything. My
mind went back to when it first
started. The day I went to Ag's house
had been last week. Ever since then
my heart started going crazy. Every
time I heard her voice, whenever she
looked at me, my heart would forget
to function.

Even now, when I'm thinking back
to every exchange I had with her, I'm
feeling butterflies in my stomach.
I have never felt this way about
anyone, but I know that this isn't
right. She's one of my best friends. I
shouldn't think this way about her.

Even though I knew I shouldn't,
not wanting to make myself believe I
had even the smallest chances, I still
thought about what it'd feel like
confessing my feelings and her
admitting that she liked me back.

I felt nauseous when I thought of
all the girls she's been with. They were
all so beautiful, their hair was perfect,
their bodies were perfect, everything
about them was perfect. This made
me feel even more insecure than ever.
I don't know why I'm worrying so
much, anyways. She'd never look at me
this way, we've been friends for way
too long. The question is, why am I
doing this to myself?
And worst of all. I couldn't tell
anyone. I'd make it weird and I'd hate
myself for it.

Author's Note: This is a bit of a
filler chapter, with the reader finally realizing her feelings
Sorry it was very short!! Hope you enjoyed it!!
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