Mikey's POV: November 2005 (Past)
"I'm... I'm moving..." said Y/N
She was trying her best to hold her tears back but was failing miserably. Her cheeks and nose were flushed, her eyes were swollen from crying. On the right side of her cheek, there was still a faint bruise fading. Even then... she still looked so beautiful.
After the events from a few weeks, my mind has been going crazy. I kept remembering everything that happened, from the moment when Tomen arrived until I got home to Y/N curled up in my bed.
My chest hurts so much just thinking about everything that happened that night, because no matter how you see it...it was all my fault. Y/N was hurt because of me... she was terrified to even go outside... she was never at ease and carefree anymore.
Since that night, the light in her eyes disappeared, and her smile faded... and it was all my fault.
"it's for the best..." I said emotionlessly and avoided her gaze.
"not it's not Mikey... look at me please..." she said while wiping away her own tears.
I can't...I can't look at you...
"you said I could stay with you...remember? That night?" she said as she grabbed my hands and held on to them right in between us.
Of course I remember that night... Of course, I remember what I said...
"My uncle won't like it... b-b-but I'm sure we can figure something out ri-i-ight? She added
Staring at me with hopeful eyes.
"I'm breaking up with you..." I said, still not looking at her, and gently removing my hands from her grasp. I put my hands inside my pockets, trying to avoid her holding on to me like that again.
"WHAT?!" She raised her voice unexpectedly, finally looking away from me. She wrapped her own arms around herself and stepped away from me. I could feel how uncomfortable she felt just from looking at her. There was nothing in this world that I wanted more then to hug her and yet, all I could do was just stand there and watch.
"Seriously? After everything that has happened, you're just going to walk away like nothing?"
She said, barely even audible, it was more like she was saying it to herself. I could see the pain in her eyes, I could feel her pain my heart. Whatever it is that she is feeling right now... I'm feeling it too.
"you said I was yours... and that you were mine..." Y/N said once again quietly
"was that a lie?" she added.
"no... but..." I started, she cut me off before I could finish.
"no but what Mikey? You had a change of heart suddenly? You've moved on from one day to another?! Suddenly, I'm not good enough for you?" she said while meeting my gaze. I could feel how upset and devastated she was feeling.
"at least tell me why...?" she said as she looked away, wiping another tear
Because it's what is best for you... I thought. Knowing very well that won't be a good enough answer for Y/N. She's always been so selfless since day one. She would pick my happiness over her safety in a heartbeat. She will never understand.
"That night...should have never happened... we should have never fought Valhalla. A lot of people got hurt because of it..." I paused
This wasn't easy to say, I gulped while trying to build the courage to destroy everything that I worked so hard to build with Y/N.
"A lot of people got hurt because of you Y/N" I said coldly meeting her gaze once more.
She looked shocked at my words, and then she looked down. I couldn't see her face, but I could see how the tears softly hit the pavement.
"I hate you..." she said faintly.
I felt everything stop...my heart, my breathing, it even almost felt like my pulse stopped. I could feel every single muscle in my body tense up. Suddenly, I felt heavy... like I couldn't move. Everything went quiet for a minute. It was like everything stopped. I haven't felt like this in a long time.
Y/N simply turned around and walked away from me. I tried my best to capture this moment very well. The way the wind played with her hair, the short schoolgirl uniform, the long black socks, and those damn combat boots that didn't match her uniform. I knew very well this was the last time I'll get to see her walk away from me, so I just stood there. I have no idea how long I was standing there for, but she was long gone during that time.
"Oi Mikey, you ready?" said Ken-chin from behind me
"Yeah... lets go" I said
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Kill for you (MikeyxFem.Reader)
Fanfiction"no but what Mikey? You had a change of heart suddenly? You've moved on from one day to another?! Suddenly, I'm not good enough for you?" she said while meeting my gaze. I could feel how upset and devastated she was feeling. "at least tell me why...
