A/N: Warning! Manga spoilers ahead! They won't be exactly like the manga but yeah
Trigger warning: Anxiety
Y/N POV: Christmas Eve 2005
Sometimes you have good days... sometimes you have bad days. Today was a bad day.
You impatiently paced up and down in your dark room. You didn't know what was wrong, but for some reason, you felt very anxious. You could feel intense palpitations banging loudly on your chest. Your breathing had increased as if you were running, however, you were barely even moving. Your brain was racing; thoughts, memories, and even fake scenarios kept running through your brain.
Whats wrong with me? What IS wrong?! Something is wrong... no... something is going to happen...
Your aunt and uncle went to celebrate Christmas eve with relatives, however, you told them you were feeling sick. You've been feeling this 'impending doom' since the moment you woke up. You knew you were not up for company feeling this way.
"just promise me you won't leave the house... I know we're away from all the trouble... but still, I want you to stay safe" your aunt's words lingered in your head.
Something Is going to happen.... Music... maybe music will calm me down
You pop in your headphones and shuffle your music
Play favorite crime by Olivia Rodrigo
And now, every time a siren sounds
I wonder if you're around
'Cause you know that I'd do it all again
All the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
Nope... not helping at all... you thought to yourself as you removed your headphones.
That actually made it worst... that made me think of Mikey... Maybe a shower... yes! A warm shower will help.
You walk into your bathroom and quickly undress. However, before you walk into the shower, you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. You stand Infront of it and analyze your features for a second. Your eyes... your lips... neck...shoulders... belly button... and then... your thighs.
There was nothing wrong with your thighs per se... however... the scarring over them was something that you still were not used to. You traced over the scars on both quads...and then felt a drop of water... you hadn't realized it, but your eyes had started to water.
You'd think I'd be used to them already... you thought to yourself as you shifted your attention back to the shower. You take a warm shower and start feeling a little more relaxed. However, the moment you step out, the feeling of anxiety starts coming back.
I'll get ready... in case anything happens... I have appropriate clothes... and shoes...
You dress warmly and quietly sit on your bed. You grab the switchblade from your nightstand and stare at it for a second...
Just in case.... It's for defense...not because I miss him.
You sat there... almost as if waiting for something to happen. When suddenly...
RING!
You picked up quickly, not even letting it ring more than once.
"HELLO!?" you practically yelled into your phone
You heard crying and mumbling on the other line; you looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Hina.
"Hina!!! Slow down!!! Hold on... are you okay??? Are you safe? Where are you?"
YOU ARE READING
Kill for you (MikeyxFem.Reader)
Fanfiction"no but what Mikey? You had a change of heart suddenly? You've moved on from one day to another?! Suddenly, I'm not good enough for you?" she said while meeting my gaze. I could feel how upset and devastated she was feeling. "at least tell me why...
