tw: scuicide attempt, intrusive thoughts,
words: 432
time it took to write: no goddamn clue
edited: nope
charachters: bunny, king
ship: none
fandom: uhhhhhh no?
night had fallen hours ago, yet i was still awake.
i couldnt sleep
there was something watching me
something in the room.
i couldnt see it due to me just turning off the lights.
i knew what was there.
its something that follows me.
something i could talk to.
something that could talk back.
i was usually the one who spoke first
but i dont want to start conversations right now.
i was lucky tonight.
it spoke first.
"you seem troubled."
my head snapped to where its voice came from.
i then looked at the floor neer my feet.
"what is on your mind?"
i thought for a minute.
i knew i could be comepletely honest with this being
but did i want to be competely honest?
i did not know the answer to that question.
thats when i spoke.
"could ask you the same question."
i spoke with a voice filled with sarcasm.
i never knew why i normally speak like this
especially to a inhuman being.
"you cant ask me the same question.
i dont have anything on my mind.
why would i
im your creation."
it still ansered the question though
the answer was dificult for me to understand
but that may just be because im tired.
how was it my creation.
i didnt create anything.
not intentionally.
i decided to answer its question.
"to asnwer your question,
whats on my mind,
well.
i was thinking about myself.
i know that sound selfish
but i was not thinking anything positive."
i paused.
i was about to speak again when it spoke instead
"what were you thinking?"
i looked at it.
at its floppy ears
at its unsettling smile that never leaves
at its glowing eyes.
i couldnt see the colour,
so i didnt know its intentions.
i then spoke.
"i dont like anything about myself."
its smile began to glow
"i know."
i felt like i should keep talking.
"i feel like the people i care about hate me."
"i know."
"it would be better if i couldnt feel anything."
"i know."
every time, it was the same answer
"im only causing trouble to my freinds."
"i know."
"i dont want to see them again."
"i know."
i felt my eyes tear up
"i want them to forget about me."
"i know"
"i want them to find someone better."
"i know."
"they probably hate me."
"i know."
tears fell down my face,
i didnt care to wipe them off.
"i dont deserver them"
"i know."
"i should dissapear."
"i know."
"it would be better if i was dead."
"i know."
"how do i die though?"
"i know."
i then noticed a sharp knife being placed in my hand
i smiled
it could all be over.
i hope my friends will find someone better
itle be easy to do that.
my eyes felt heavy,
as i felt blood drip from me.
finnaly i could rest.
goodbye my freinds
goodbye froggie.
goodbye fearie.
just as i fell into sleep,
i opened my eyes.
im still alive.
better luck next time.
