PLEASE KEEP ME ALIVE

15/06/2022

7 stages of love

7 stages of love in my opinion, which I wish I will have the changes to experience.

1. like
- this feeling makes me feels like, "oh, he's kinda cute!"

2. crush
- I become nervous and my heart pounding faster than usuall. Cannot take my eyes off him when see him anywhere but have to look away to not to be notice..but and the same time trying so good to take a look on his.....everything! When our eyes meet, I'm sure I'm gonna frozen out of embarrassment but..maybe I'll just pretend I looked something behind him..or.... if it too obvious,maybe I'll just smile and walk away, faster.

3. date
- omg, I'm really looking foward for this! I can even imagine how a man will ask me for a date, even just a quick coffee. Maybe a woman, it's okay I'll do both. HEHEHEHE but I'm preferred man for partner. What should I wear if he goes, "are you free tonight? Let's have a date..shall we?"
OMG I'm afraid I'm gonna die instantly! Well, I don't really want to go for a quick or formal or informal or accidentally date after work. I've been on the same clothes all day. Oh, and the person who asked for the date must be my crush. This is what I'm talking about. Well, I've crush on him..so isn't normal for me to have the feelings to be in my best clothes? Hmm.. maybe I'll put on a dress. Ooo yes! I have to keep at least one cute dress perfect of date!

4. going out
- not all dates work well. In this sequences, let say all dates I have with my crush, working out and he one day take me to a special place, not like all other places we went for dates and look into my eyes saying, "will you go out with me?" OMG OMG OMGGG!!!! YES YES I WILL YES! but I dont wanna sound like desperate. But if I don't show excitement,maybe he'll think I'm just saying yes because he asked me. No! I really like you.. I have a big crush on you. At this point, I'm going mental. How should I react if he take my hand as we walk along the garden,maybe? Ooohhhh.... I think I'll burn my face out..my hand eventually shaking and sweating. What should I do? I don't wanna be a disgusting person. Sweating like hell just over a hand slip. Ong my blushing hard right now!

5. girlfriend/boyfriend
- All after going out, I'm thinking.. is he officially my boyfriend? Well, I cannot asume that kind of tille by myself. It's about his feeling. If someone asked me, "is he your boyfriend?" what should I said? "umm.. we're going out" or "yes..he is" what if he doesn't like my kind of answers? What if he's offended? I don't wanna make my love feels that way. Hmm.. I should ask him..or discuss? What to be discuss for? I don't wanna make him think I'm weird. Ehhhh... wait! If we're going out, do we live together?!!! Hmmm... I don't think so. But I want to. ehe.. What about, we have been going out long enough.. and he take out a ring out of his pocket and shown me.. as I looked at the ring, he casually say, "would you be my girlfriend?" I don't think I have a heart anymore. It melts!

6. engagement
- it's time to include families & friends...! As we're officially a unmarried couple, we have to start to know each other deeper. All this time we are learning about ourselves, know we have to involve ourselves into important people around us!

7. wedding
- After all those things happen, now it's marriage time..wohoooo....
This is so great! I pray , everyday , for me to get through this phases before I die.

All I want, is a man, who love me more than his life, work really good to make me happy, come to me.. soon. I am waiting for you, my love.