Fool No More (completed)

4

After thinking about everything that Ez and I talked about I decided to do just as he suggested. I pulled up my big girl pants and I made the first move of fixing things between me and Creeper.

I texted him asking him if he had time to come over and talk with me. When he told me he was on his way I laid my phone down and rubbed my sweaty palms on my pants before I braced myself for all the possible things that could or may occur.

Hearing his bike ride along the street and pull into my driveway I was a mess of nerves but I knew this had to be done so things between Cre and I wasn't fucked up or ruined.

I opened the door after he knocked twice.

"come in" I say as I opened the door more and stepped back.

"you wanted to talk?" he asked

"we need to" I replied as I shut the front door and gestured for him to sit.

After we both took a seat I faced him and rubbed my sweaty plans on my jeans again.

"you ok mamas?" he asked

"nervous" I replied

"why?" he asked

"the possible outcome of this discussion" I replied

"Oh" was all he said

"look that night you came over to comfort me over my stupid heartbreak of Angel and I said what I did about things changing in our relationship to a better one. if it made you feel as if I was wanting to use you to mend my broken heart over Angel. then I'm sorry it wasnt why I said it. I am not gonna ever use you like that in any way Cre. and if I made you feel as if I'd use you as some sort of rebound then I'm sorry. you mean so much to me" I tell him

"to be honest Mammas I did think that which is why I said nothing," he says

I took a deep breath.

 "me not contacting you or hardly talking to you as I had before wasn't gonna fix anything or make things right. and for that I'm sorry." I tell him

"I could have contacted you as well to fix this or clear the air just as much as you. and with you not hardly talking to me like you did I felt that I fucked up by not saying anything," he says

"you didn't fuck up Cre. I am the one who made you feel as if you'd be a rebound to me so I'd get over my feelings for Angel. when to be honest those feelings were puppy love. horse shit school crush love. nothing honestly real. I was just blinded by a fantasy that my mind conjured up." I tell him

"So we good?" he asked

"I hope so" I replied

He nodded

"yea we good," he says

"good I missed my Cre" I tell him as I pulled him into a tight hug.

"I missed my Lynx as well," he says as he hugs me back.

"From now on you and I are gonna be honest with each other. no more bullshit ignoring one another and not talking like we use to" I say

"starting now?" he asked

"yea" I replied

"Well I have something to confess," he says

I pulled back and looked at him.

"Alright, spill it. I'm all ears" I tell him

He looked at me and figeted.

"you alright?" I asked

"Yea its just..." he stopped halfway

"take your time Cre." I tell him

He nodded and went quiet for a few minutes before reaching for my hands and looking at me.