I'm 18 and I'm a teen mom ..
My daughter's name and s Roxanna,Roxy for short. I love her so much but sometimes it gets hard to look at her , she has his hazel eyes and the same skin color .. Actually she looked exactly like her. This past year I be been trying to avoid any questions that Roxy asked about her dad and I still remember that day when she said " Mommy, why do everyone has a daddy and me not ? Is daddy hate me ? " she said as her lips quivered , her eyes were watery and it saddened me to see her like this while I wasn't over Zayn yet. You may think it was a drunken mistake or something but it wasn't like that. Some times I was Il and sometimes I had morning sickness (which was awful). I started worrying so I went to a doctor and that's when I found out I was pregnant with Zayn's baby. I was shocked and at loss of words, literally. And wga made it worse was that I didn't have anyone back then, not even my parents wanted to talk to me after what happened and they even kicked me out of the house. Thank god I had somebsavedbup money in my bank account which helped me buy mine and Roxy's house. After I told him I was pregnant he was she shocked at first but then he accepted the fact that after 9 months or less he's gonna be a father. He even seemed happy about it. Things were so perfect between us and he treated me like a princess an actual princess. That was all before the car accident five months after he knew about the baby. He wanted us to go partying though I shouldn't drink. And that's what happened, we went to a bar and we danced and Zayn's drank some shots .... Well actually he had a lot of shots. We had so much fun and after 2 hours he said we should leave .I told him not to drive but he insisted saying that ' he's not too drunk to drive ' . I didn't protest knowing that an angry drunk Zayn wouldn't be so good at the moment. He said he had something special planned for us. We turned on the radio and sang along loudly while we laughed, and suddenly out of nowhere a truck appeared in front of our car and the impact sent Zayn's body flying forward since he wasn't wearing his seatbelt while I hit the front glass of the car and everything blacked out. I thought this was the end , little did I know that this was a beginning of a tragic life of mine. I woke up in a hospital bedroom . white sheets , white tiles , white walls and a blue gown. I sat up slowly and was greeted by Dr Evans as his name tag read. "Hello Mrs Clark's how are you feeling ? " he said with a soft smile. Actually I didn't know how I was feeling.... " What happened ?" I asked if course fearing the answer. "You were in a car accident with .....Mr Malik but you'll be getting better and by the way your baby is just fine we just need some tests done then it's all okay " he said with a sad smile which made me think about Zayn. Where was he ! What was he doing ? Was he okay ? The doctor didn't mention anything about him...
"Where is Zayn ? " I asked waiting for the answer impatiently.
" he's in the room next to you " he said with an apologetic smile . god! That guy and his smiles. I thought it was weird he was just too nice. " Can I see him ? " I really wanted to see him right now
"Err...Yeah Sure" he said nervously and walked out of the room. I stood up , tugged my gown down and started walking to the door ready to meet Zayn, god! I miss him.I reached his room and knocked on the door. No answer. Maybe I should just go in , he wouldn't mind. I opens the door revealingly Zayn's body resting on the hospital bed. he was asleep. I missed him so much but it doesn't matter anymore cause now he's right in front of me . the thought brought a smile on my lips as I walked to the chair next to his bed, I held his hand in mine as I kissed it. The room felt cold and his hands did too. A nurse came in and I didn't hesitate to ask her " why isn't he awake till now ? " . she paused for a moment and she looked like she was about to burst into tears but instead she gave me a small sympathetic smile and said the words I feared she would say , the most 5 terrible words I wished I never heard, " I'm sorry for your loss." And there goes every memory of us. The light hearted jokes , the drunken conversations , the fights , the tears , me leaning on him as he sang to me with his angelic voice , the kisses , him , me , US.
there's no US anymore its just me. That explained his pale face , cold hand and everything. I fell on my knees and stated crying while every memory of us came to my mind. Why didn't he live ? He deserved to live. Why god had to take away the thing that I loved the most ? The person who was keeping my sanity, the person who meant the world to me . the person who took away my misery and replaced it with glee, the person who made me cry tears of happiness. Days passed and here I am standing in a black dress in his funeral hearing lots of ' sorry for your loss ' . I didn't pay attention until I spotted the nurse coming towards me. That made me think if maybe something was wrong.but she placed a folded paper and a box in my hand saying " we found those in his pockets " . the day passed slowly and I was now sitting on OUR bed but then I remembered the paper and box from earlier. I grabbed my purse and snatched them out. " I'll go with the paper first " I thought. The paper said
Dear Amy,
It's been an eventful year hasn't it ? You've been by my side all this time , we went through ups and downs and we had our fair share not fights....but that's a part of who we are. Remember our first kiss at the pool ? Yeah you probably do. It was the first time I heard you saying those 3 words. Those 3 little words who put my world upside down, I've came to realize that my love for you was huge! You're an angel Amy! MY angel. And without any openings, I want to spend my lifetime with you, having our own family and watch our kids playing in our garden, I want to be a granddad and I want you to be the grandmother of our children's kids. I want you as my wife. Amy Grace Clarks would you give me the honor of marrying you ? Of being your life partner and your love ? Do you accept me as your husband ?
My tears spilled down my cheeks and on the paper. That was ' I have something planned for us '. That was his proposal speech. This was going to be my happiest day ever. What was I feeling ? I don't know anything anymore. Its not that hard to guess what's in that small box after reading this letter. I opened the box with tears filling my eyes. The ring was stunning with a simple heart shaped diamond. The tears fell on it and I wiped them away, I noticed that there were words engraved on the ring. I peeked closer. ' Because this moment simply is ' a smile danced on my lips as the tears continued to spill down my cheeks. I closed my eyes as I remembered this day at the pool. " I heared you got a new tattoo ? " I asked Zayn while swimming around him. " True that " he said as he gave me a crooked smile. " Where did you get It ? " I asked as I neared him. " I'd like to show you but little miss innocent wouldn't appreciate the sight " he smirked at me and I blushed. " Seriously Zayn! " I smacked his arm . " its right here ." he said with a serious face as he pointed to his wrist. I moved closer to see, it read because this moment simply is . I knotted my eyebrows in confusion and gave him a questioning look. " I don't understand " I said still frowning.
" Because" he said as he took a step towards me.
" This moment " another step closer as he said " Simply" , he cupped my cheeks and I could feel his breath on my face. My heart was dancing and i was going crazy. "Is" he said as he took the last step to connect our lips together in the most passionate kiss ever.
PERFECT. I completed his last word
I opened my eyes again to the real world . I grabbed a tissue and wiped my fresh tears. I put the paper and the box on my nightstand band glanced at the clock.
11:11 pm . it read
I walked to my balcony , looked at the sky and said
" Hey Zayn. Since its 11:11, I wish you're happy up there! I love you Zayn, I love you. "
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