Love.?

Anxiety

"Sorry, I didn't mean to do that... and I umm.." she started shaking.

What..? What does this mean?... she didn't mean it?..
"I really like you.!! I just don't think I'm like that.. like I don't think I'm..." she was struggling with saying the word 'homo' "oh uhm.. yeah.. that's-" "I'm sorry" I got cut off by her apology. Violet got off me and walked away, sobbing.

I sat down on the ground thinking. She didn't like me..? Why did she kiss me then..? Is she straight.? This was too much. I sat down crying and crying until there eventually wasn't any tears left. After that I got up. The first thing I did was to call Mike. "ARLO STOP WILLOWS CALLING ME" was the first thing he said when he picked up. "Hello you too" I said. "Hey, what's up? Are you and Violet getting along?"
"Uhm about that.. she kind of kissed me, and then said she didn't mean too, and after that she walked away.. MIKE WE MADE OUT AND SHE WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHING.." I started crying again. "Oh god.. I'll come to pick you up" Mike said. "ARLO STFU FOR THE LAST TIME" mikes shouted playfully. "Alright, we will be there in 5 minutes"

After about five minutes they came. Mike and Arlo were basically like parents to me, even though they are a year older. My parents never really showed attention to me, and I moved in with Mike and arlo when I was 17.

"You alright?.." Mike asked me with a worried look on his face as I sat down in the car. "No." I said shortly. The rest of the car ride was silent.
She didn't like the kiss? She kissed me though? Why? What even happened? Omg it was going so well. I started sobbing again when we came home. Right when I sat down on the sofa I had a mental breakdown. "I'll get you some water" Arlo said walking to the kitchen. Then my phone got a notification. "Unknown number; hey it's Violet, I'm sorry for earlier today I just wondered how it is going with you rn?:]" SHE DID NOT PUT A SMILEY AT THE END AFTER SHE FUCKING BROKE ME.. I replied with "it's not alright, but I appreciate your apology.." I don't. The truth was that I never wanted to talk with her EVER again..

"I'm leaving for work!" Arlo said. "I'll drive you my love ;)" Mike said.

[no one's POV arlo x Mike shit]
When the couple was outside the car door Mike tried unlocking the door but Arlo just pinned him to the car door kissing his neck. "A- someone is gonna s-see us." Mike said flustered by the sudden action. "Sorry" Arlo said, after a few seconds of awkward staring they walked into the car and drove to work.

[back to willows POV]
I Spent the rest of my day watching tv, sleeping, and reading fanfics.
After like 1/2hrs I fell asleep. Crying.