Love.?

A crush..?

I woke up to someone shaking me awake. "Willow, please wake up.." a female voice whispered. I jumped up.
It was Violet. "The fuck are you doing here?!" I half-shouted. "Arlo let me in.." willow said backing up because of my sudden reaction. "Oh." I said shortly. Was she scared of me...? "So umm, why are you he-" I started, but I was cut off by Violets lips being pressed to mine. She was such a good kisser, omfg.

After 10 seconds I pulled away. "I- what-?" I said confused and flustered. "I, so, uhmm, I kinda like you.. but I'm not sure that I'm ready for a relationship yet.." she said. THIS IS NOT HAPPENING!! EEK!! "Yeah, I like you too.." I said blushing the shit out of me. (Idrc if that made sense or not)

*knock knock* "COME IN" I shouted. "Hey, it's just me, Mike, I heard Arlo let Violet in here.?" Mike said, and then he looked at me who was being topped by Violet. Mike got a weird smirking expression on his face. Then he quickly walked out and ran downstairs to Arlo. When he was gone both me and Violet burst out laughing. "HAHAHAH THE LOOK ON HIS FACE HAHAHAHAJA" Violet laughed. Oh god, her laugh was so angelic.

TIME SKIP
I woke up cuddled up in Violets hands. Oh god, lesbian panic omfg. My fave turned red, and I chuckled for myself. "I see you are awake my love?" Violet said with her hot morning voice. "Yeah haha, WAIT A MINUTE WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL ME?!" I shouted. "Yeah so last night I thought about it and I think I really want to date you, so do you want to be my one and only girlfriend?" She said with a hopeful look on her face. Omg, is this a dream?! I wanted to say yes, but there was still a thought in my brain, if she loves me, and has a crush on me, why would she run off crying after kissing me the same day as kissing me on my bed? I should be happy that my "crush" asked me to date them, but for some reason I wasn't..? Why.?

"I'm sorry, but I don't think I'm ready yet, we can still be friends and see if anything changes!" I said smiling weakly. "Oh, uh, sure!" She said unsure what to say. "I'll just go home then." Violet said. "Oh, ok, see ya" I said, watching her close the door behind her. Why didn't I just say yes? I was left with nothing, just thoughts and regrets.. the next minute that Violet left, Mike walked in. "Heyyyyyyy" he said smirking. "Not now.." I said. I could feel tears run down my cheek. When Mike saw that he immediately hugged me. "Hey, hey, what happened?" He asked me. "She kissed me and asked me to be her girlfriend, but I was unsure about my feelings because of the last incident.. and I just messed up both mine and Violets feelings, and my brain is full of thoughts and regrets.." I said sobbing harder into mikes shirt.

After an hour my breathing was back to normal and Mike tried to comfort me, but it didn't really help THAT much, but it helped a little. Oh god, Mike was the best friend someone could ever wish for...