Pursuer

3/3

"Good luck sa flight mo captain, ingat ka" sabi ko sa kanya pagkatapos ko siyang yakapin.

"Syempre naman, maliit na bagay doc" may tiwala ako sa kanya na babalik siya, hindi niya pa ako nabibigo.

"You okay?" tanong niya, nakita niyang nagfifidget nanaman yung mga kamay ko.

Hinawakan niya ito and intertwined our fingers. I have a strange gut feeling na something bad will happen, I'm trying my best to forget pero it keeps coming back into my mind.

"Don't worry Pat, this wouldn't be our last talk, I promise!" tinawag niya ako sa nickname ko which I only allowed with my family, mostly papa called me that name. I've been close with Y/N than any other friend I've had so pinapatawag ko na din siya sa pangalan na yun.

"Alis na ako doc, hindi kita iiwan hanggang hindi ko naririnig na sinasagot mo na ako"

"Shut up nga capt, ipagpahinga mo muna yung kalandian mo at baka paikot ikot yung pagmaneho mo sa eroplano." I wanted to see your smile pero parang pilit yung ngiti mo ngayon, everytime naman kapag may flight ka nahahalata ko yun but it's normal naman to be nervous, right?

We never kissed obviously hindi sa mouth, pero not even on the cheeks, I guess I'll try this time.

I walked up to Y/N at hinalikan sya sa cheeks.

Nakatitig lang siya sa akin, not knowing what to do after but we heard the speaker na they'll be boarding in the plane soon.

"I'll go na doktora!" Lumakad na siya papalayo and I smiled when nakita kong tuwang tuwa siya sa halik, that's the genuine smile that I was looking for.

"Ingat captain!" I yelled one last time.

You lied Y/N, you never came back.

You left the same way that papa left, papuntang Masbate City. Sabi ng mga flight attendants and ang kasama mong isa pang piloto, na wala namang seryosong nangyari except sa pagkamatay mo.

"Captain Y/N risked only one life, unfortunately sya yun Ms. Tricia, naaalala ko na pinagalitan niya pa ako nang pilit kong sinasamahan siya sa harap."

"Bago po kayo umalis ma'am, when the medical team arrived, they found this po."

Para bang tumigil sa pagtibok ang puso ko when I saw what he had in his hand, all I wanted to do at that time was let out the anger and sadness that was building up, it's killing me and was slowly suffocating me from the inside.

I took the ring from his hand, it had some cracks but it was still intact. There was a note in the box that it was in na kahit medyo nadumihan na yung papel, mababasa mo pa din ang nakasulat. Sabi mo dun ay it was a promise ring that you forgot to give me before you boarded the plane, dun mo din nasabi na mahal mo ako. I didn't get to say it back Y/N.

I consider you as my first relationship, kahit bestfriends ang turing natin o ang pagkakakilala natin sa isa't isa. It hurts me that I didn't get to be your 'official' girlfriend, kahit saglit lang. We hid our feelings for too long until one of us got our lives taken away.

I told myself multiple times to tell you about how I really felt pero I was second guessing everything. Back then sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na "sa susunod nalang" o "it's not the right time yet". Duwag ako. I was too scared to commit into an actual relationship, dahil sa nangyari kay papa at mama.

I guess that's it for the flashback, a nice memory but I've moved on now, thank you captain. I hope in our next life we meet again, in an alternate universe that you came home safe.

I took off the ring and left it on your grave when I got married, I know you would accept this ending with no jealousy involved. Alam kong gusto mo akong mabuhay ng masaya. You mentioned that nung nililigawan mo ako, you also added "Kahit na hindi ako yung taong yun, Tricia"

"Let's go na mahal?"

"You've already handled Rocco and Y/N's mess?"

"Yeah, good as new!"

I found someone that treats me good, though it will never compare to the love I felt from you. We had our first child just a few years ago, pinangalanan ko siya after you.

Yes, you left this world but you will forever be in our hearts nila mama like papa. I hope you're happy there with him. I love you Captain Y/N, enjoy your stay there and keep yourself busy, matagal pa ang panahon na hihintayin mo bago kita makasama dyan.