Late night thoughts

Dreams

26.5.22

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I have dreams. Everybody does, right? People dream about having a husband, big house, golden retriever and two kids. They dream about being healthy and rich. Being able to do whatever they want to.

My dreams are pretty basic but still really important to me and of course I hope I'll be able to make my dreams come true someday. Just like everyone does.

My biggest dream is to be able to live in Italy, for a year, two, three, ten? I don't know how long but I just know that I really really want to live there. People always tell me that "You need to stop romanticizing that country. Italy is not 'the perfect country' you know that? It has it's own problems." Of course I know it. There is zero countries that are perfect, every country has it's own problems and I can decide if I'd like living in Italy or not when I get to go there. Just let me dream about it. Please.

My second biggest dream is stereotypical for almost 16 years old teen girl. Getting a boyfriend. But isn't it what we all want in the end? A partner. (A romantic ppl and others who don't want partner are valid!!) A human needs love, whether it was love from family, friends or a partner. No one can be entirely happy if they are all alone. Without a partner by my side I just feel so alone. Everyday I see people walking or hanging out with their partners and all I can think of is 'When will I get one?' It isn't fair to see everyone so happy and then there's me, who's never had a boyfriend. Is it too much to ask? Am I that hard to love? I just imagine every night how I'd cuddle with my boyfriend until we have asleep. Maybe one day that dream will come true.

Those two are the most important dreams to me, of course there are more. Like being able to speak fluent Italian, being good at singing, taking pets and stuff like that. But those. Those are the ones that I really really hope will come true one day.