"I found love in a cruel world"

Chapter 3

Bea's POV

*Ringg ringgg*
My loud alarm clock rang. It's already 4:30 am yeah, maaga ang oras na sinet ko kasi may klase ako. Actually, limang oras lang ang tulog ko. I can't sleep peacefully and early kagabi because of that boy. He ruined my moment! I should know his name, he should be punish! But not brutal punishment ha, just a simple punishment lang. Kahit naman may galit ako sa tao may mabuting side padin ako. I'm not that evil but I can be an evil at the same time.

Tumayo ako at nag simulang pumunta sa kusina. My parents and siblings are not wake up. They are still sleeping peacefully. Bago pa man ako makarating sa kusina dumaan ako sa kwarto ng parents ko. I saw them hugging each other while sleeping peacefully. They have an angelic face how pretty.
It took few minutes when I'm watching at them. Nagulat na lamang ako no'ng nakita ko ang oras sa cellphone ko. It already 4:45 am,ilang minuto  nalang at mag a-alas singko na. Dali Dali akong nagtungo sa kusina para makapag saing na at maligo. Mahaba haba pa ang oras,hindi naman siguro ako ma la-late if mag tatagal tagalan pa ako dito sa banyo. Iniisip ko lang talaga 'yong lalaki kagabi,what if kilala n'ya ako? Pero siguro hindi n'ya naman ako nakita. But still! What if, di'ba? Hyst, I really don't want it when someone knows a few details about me. At ang pagiging iyakin ko, isa na iyon sa mga detalye na p'wede n'yang gamitin laban sa akin.
Mga ilang minuto lang at naluto na kaagad ang sinaing ko,I already prepared my things na din. I really need to be early, kailangan kong makilala ang lalaking iyon. For sure,he is just our neighbor. Kaya dapat maunahan ko s'ya sa paglabas!
"Chop chop, faster Bea." I said as I entered that bathroom. As I take a bath biglaan na lamang sumagi sa utak ko ang pangyayari ng buhay ko. The day how people treat me like a trash. The day how people make fun of me! And the day how my family drag me into loweset level of life! That sucks the most! When that people should be in your side in darkest time but they becamed the reason why I am in darkest. They played my feelings when I needed them! But why? Why I keeps hurting myself? Hurting them hurt myself too! But—
"Bea,dalian mo. Hindi lang ikaw ang gagamit sa bathroom"
"Oh malapit na po" gising na pala si ate. Si kuya,gising na kaya s'ya? Baka ma late s'ya. 
As usual I am the one who always wake my kuya. Kahit minsan naiinis ako, pero wala eh.

"Bro, wake up. It's already 5:00 in the morning. Move, your going to be late"
"Who cares, get out. I can handle myself." My kuya told me as he point the door to get me out. Well, as usual he always used that words on me. Why don't be admit nalang na kahit papaano nakatulong pa din ang pag gising ko sa kan'ya? Argh, nevermind!

"What time is it? Arh already 5:45 am I need to go" the time make me so stress. Na pre-pressure ako sa oras, jusko!
"Oy oy oy"
"Good morning po, Ma. Alis na po ako" I said as a respect on her. Gising na pala si Mama, himala naman napaka aga.
"Did you already cook a food for us, huh?" My mom asked me as she raised her eyebrows on me.
"Ahh yeah, I already cooked. I need to go, Good morning again!" I said as I run fastly pa alis sa bahay namin. Natagalan pa ako dahil sa kaniya. Para akong alila dito sa bahay, parang hindi ako anak. Well, that's how life works, di'ba? Life is so damn unfair! Palagi nalang gani—
"Wait,this is our neighbor house. So the guy kagabi is andito talaga?! Malamang!" I am now at their front gate. Acting waiting my siblings but I waited the boy. I really need to clear those things that he seen earlier.
"Ah,ija? May kailangan ka ba?"
"Ah wala po. I am waiting my siblings po" I said as I smiled on her to show peace.
"Oh Bea,it's already 15 minutes bago ka umalis. I thought nasa school kana. Bakit kapa andito?" My ate asked me. Naku,huli na ako! Pero no,it can't be!
"I waited you"
"Huh? Me? Whatever!" She rolled her eyes on me. Well ayos lang sanay na ako. But it's better kesa naman mag tanong pa s'ya at ma bisto pa ako.
It's already 6:00am pero bakit wala pa din? Hmm, imposible! I'll wait him! I am busy thinking while waiting that guy when suddenly I felt vibration on my pocket. My phone rang.
"Hello?" Ani ko sa kabilang linya.
"Bea,asan ka na?! Ang assignment namin hindi pa namin nasulat. Bakit ang tagal mo?!"
Ay naku,Tama! May assignment pala. Sinagotan ko na 'yon kagabi pero hindi pa ito nasulat ng ka klase ko.
Argh I really need to go!
"Ah oo,on the way na" I said at muling ibinulsa ang aking cellphone. Sa dami na p'wede kong kalimutan, ang assignment pa talaga nila! Naku, it all because of that boy! It's not the right time to meet you, babalikan kita mamaya pag-uwi.
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"S-so-sorry. Hindi pa naman ako late di'ba? Hehe oh dali na isulat n'yo na 'to" iniabot ko ang notebook ko sa kanila para makasulat na sila so that they won't failed. I know how it feels na mapagalitan ng parents dahil sa grades,at ayaw ko na maramdaman nila 'yon!
"Hyysstt, salamat Bea ha,dabest ka talaga!" Christine said as she do a beso on my cheeks. I feel so overwhelmed when my friends says thank you on me. A people like are rare nowadays. I'm happy to see them happy.
"Bea, recess time na" kublit ni Tina sa akin. She's not my friend pero makulit s'ya kaya hinayaan ko na lang.
"Where are them?" I asked her as I grabbed my eyes. Nakatulog pala ako,buti nalang at hindi ako nakita ng prof namin.
"Them?who?"
"Com'on, where are them? My friends, sila Christine?"
"Ah,they already arrived in canteen. Tulog ka kasi kaya ka iniwan" Ani nito na nakapag isip sa akin ng malalim. Bakit hindi man lang nila ako ginising? Bakit nila ako hinayaan?
Ay! Anoba, overthink na naman. Makapunta na nga lang sa canteen.
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I saw them, Christine together with our friends. Jessica, and Claire. They are happy talking while eating. Aww cute naman ng mga friends ko.
"Ey" Pag basag ko ng pag uusap nila. Ngunit nabigla na lamang ako noong umiwas sila at lumipat sa isang table. Sumunod ako doon at tumabi sa tabi nila. Claire raised her eyebrows on me as she rolled her eyes. They are talking,they don't notice me. It feels like, they are avoiding me. Why?! Did I made a wrong steps? May kasalanan ba ako?! Actually,it's been a month since they keeps avoiding me. I thought ayos na dahil kanina. They talked on me kanina. Pero bakit? Bakit 'di nila ako pinapansin?!