hatred ~ love | seokchan instagram ff

sun cafe

/CHAN/

I was at Sun Cafe with Seokmin. I was a little crept out by all his fans watching us. I obviously didn't like it.

A fan came up to us.

“Are you guys dating?”
She asked.

“No, we're not. Just friends.”
I said.

She nodded and left.

Seokmin looks like he has already gotten used to the fans watching him. I felt a little uncomfortable. I just wanted to eat in peace.

He stared at me. Why is he staring? Is there something on my face?

He got closer. I panic a little. What was he trying to do?

He removed something from my lips.

“Sorry, you just got something on your lips. It bothers me.”

I nodded.

He got closer to me and whispered something.

“After this, I'll bring you somewhere where my fans aren't around. I'm sorry if you felt uncomfortable. I didn't know they would be here.”

I sighed, angrily. I would have raged at him right now. But his fans are staring at us. What if the whole army started beating the living shit out of me if I started arguing with Seokmin? I mean who wouldn't want to see their favourite idol being argued at.

- 20 MINUTES LATER -

We left the café and he brought me to a bridge where it's windy and there are really amazing views.

“This is where I go if my day doesn't go well.”
He said.

I nodded.

“It's kinda windy up here.”
I said.

“I don't really show where my hidden spot is to my close friends. I don't want them to know because I don't want them to come here and know where I go. I just want to be alone.”

“Does Ailee know about this?”

“Nope. I didn't even tell to all my past relationships.”

Wait. Why does he show me tho?

“Then why would you show me?”

“I have no idea why. I just trust you. I feel safe around you even if you dislike me.”

Does he like me?

I bit my lips.

“Are you going through a hard time right now?”
I asked.

“Kind of.”

“Relationship problems?”
I guessed.

“i like someone. he doesn't like me back.”

It's a he? Who is he?

“there are more than thousands of people in this world. he's not the only guy in this world that could make you happy. if he doesn't like you back, it's fine. Crying over him is useless. He doesn't like you back. You are literally wasting your time over a wall.”

“Chan, you don't understand. Whenever he's there with me, I'm happy. He's the only one who makes me feel this way. I really like him. I can't lose the chance.”

Seokmin started sobbing.

Oh man. I feel so pity for him.

I go in for a hug. I hugged him tightly.

“its okay, Seokmin”

Should I ask him who he likes? Will that sound rude? I think it's not the time yet. He's in his emotional stage.

When I hugged him, I have no idea why my heartbeat starts beating faster. There are butterflies in my stomach.

Ah shit.

Am I falling in love? No, this can't be. Aren't I straight? I don't like men.

But the only man I like is, Lee Seokmin.

Fuck!

Am I crushing on him? Are these my official feelings? Omg.

Why are we still hugging? How long are we hugging?

I let go of the hug.

“Let me return you home.”
He said, wiping his tears off.

We went in the car.

I looked at him.

“I hope you're okay.”

“Thanks for being worried for me”

“of course. I hate seeing people cry. Like no shit, it's scary.”

He laughed.

We reached my home.

And saw my mother outside the house with arms on her hips.

“Oh shit.”

“I'll come out and apologise that it was my fault for bringing you home at midnight.”

“No. It's fine. Stay in the car.”

“No. I insist.”

I had nothing to say so I let him do it.

I went out of the car.

“Oh. Hey mom.”

I smiled.

My mom seemed to be angry at me until she saw Seokmin.

She was surprised. She started smiling.

“Oh Chan. You brought a guy home. Didn't know you like men.”
My mom smiled.

“I'm straight. He's my friend.”

“Hi Mrs Lee. I'm Lee Seokmin. I'm sorry for bringing your son home late. I promised I wouldn't do that anymore.”
Seokmin bowed in forgiveness.

“It's okay, Seokmin. You are such a nice guy. Such a gentleman. And also very handsome too. It's okay. I permit you. You can bring home my son at whatever time you like. I don't mind anymore”
My mother smiled in a flirty way.

Seokmin giggled.

I made a ‘mother, you gotta be kidding me’ face.

“Mrs Lee. Chan. I have to go. Have a great day.”

He bowed.

“Stay safe, handsome”
My mother waved to him.

Seokmin left with his car.

“When are you going to make him my son-in-law?”
My mother wiggled her eyebrows flirtatiously.

“Stop it, Mom”

I went up to my bedroom and lie flat on my bed.

Do I really like him? Why are feelings so weird?

Yes.

Maybe I do like him. Why am I crushing on him at the wrong time? He likes someone else. And it's not me.