Just a Fan (Dinah/you)

Chapter 24

Your POV

Me and Lauren got caught by the girls singing and dancing. I couldn't help but think that maybe if Dinah and I do break up that it wouldn't be so bad. This could just be my anger from the kiss but it still bugs me that Dinah would do something like that to me. But then I realize that Dinah is the love of my life, I need her.

I help Lauren get ready for the show trying to ignore Dinah as much as possible. I can't help but tear up when ever I look at her.

I catch her looking at me from across the room and I watch as she wipes a tear away from her eyes. I try to gaze at Lauren trying to distract myself.

Dinah is the most beautiful girlfriend that I could have ever wanted but there is something about Lauren that makes me feel safe and makes me feel wanted.

During the show the girls go through their normal routine of songs and rocks the stage. I can't help but stare at Lauren's ass during some of the songs I mean who wouldn't.

We get back to the bus and we all go our separate ways. I haven't talked to Dinah all day but I decide that now is not the time. I get to my bunk and immediately the tears begin to fall. First a small tear flows down my cheek and I quickly close the curtain but then my body starts to shake and I am crying in my bed. I face my back to the curtain and my front to the wall.

I feel a body shift next to me.

"Hey it's okay, your gonna be okay now." She soothes into my ear

Her arms wrap around me, spooning me and I can tell by her size that it is Lauren. Our legs entangle in each other and I interlock your hands as they rest on my stomach. My tank top leaves my shoulders open and a small kiss is placed there. Tingles are sent all through my body. I turn to face her and I lean in.

I close Lauren's lips into mine. Her soft lips brush against mine and we move in perfect harmony. Her hand reach up to rest on my cheek never once breaking our kiss. She licks my bottom lip and I open as a soft tongue enters. he bites my lips pulling on it a bit and I let our a breathy moan.

She smiles at the affect and moves her other hand on my hip. Her hand glides under my shirt to my abs and she traces the outline. I watch as she smiles to herself.

"Y/N your perfect."

I now move my hand to reach under her shirt. Placing it on her toned and hard stomach.

"I think you are mistaken"

We kiss once more before we both fall asleep in each others arms. The cool air from Lauren's mouth hits the back of my neck and it sends shivers down my spine.

Lauren is perfect but she is not Dinah. Dinah is flawless.

Dinah POV

I get back onto the bus with all of the girls. Y/N has completely ignored me the entire day and I miss her. I miss her smile, her way with words, her eyes, and I miss the way she lights up my world. This girl has turned my life upside down. Before I met Y/N I was just another girl but after I met her I became the girl that I wanted to be...happy.

During the time in the XFactor with all of the girls I slipped into a small dark hole. Nobody could get me out and nobody could save me. I was hurting myself mentally and physically.

And by physically you know exactly what I mean. The small scars remind me constantly of the pain that I was in and now I am feeling that pain again. The five marks remind me of my past.

I enter the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror. I no longer see my self as Dinah I see myself as the sad girl that wrecked the only hope that she had.

Blood trickles into the sink and three fresh wounds are created. Without Y/N in my life I have nothing... I am nothing.

I exit the bathroom to find that everyone is asleep. I jump into my bunk and fall asleep quickly. One day she will forgive me.

Your POV

I wake up to find myself alone in bed. I get out to be met with the sweet aroma of pancakes. Ally kisses my forehead and gives me a weak smile.

"Hey cutie how you feeling"

"I could be better, I am just so confused. I love Dinah so much and I can't stand to see her drift away from me. I miss stealing kisses from her and holding her hand. I miss the way her body consumes mine when we cuddle. Not only does this affect me thought it affects everyone. No one is happy."

I look at the ball of sunshine that is Ally and it seems like a dark cloud is covering her

"Dinah is just the heart and soul of this band and we need her fire back. You need to talk to her."

"Ally its not that easy I did some things that I regret and I'm scared that I will make things worse."

"Y/N what did you do?" She takes my hands and we sit down on the couch and bring my hands up to my eyes and tears threaten to fall

"I kissed Lauren." Ally brings me into a hug and we sit like this for a while and she rubs my back comforting me

"Don't worry you will get through this, you just need to talk to her. She needs you."

I weakly smile and I nod my head. Today is going to be an interesting day.

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