It is a feeling of betrayal that is piercing my chest. My tears are flooding and there is no way I can control them.
I had never expected something like this to happen.
I thought everything is fine now. I can finally breathe but I was stupid. I was stupid to have that kind of hope.
How can anything be alright? How can I breathe when I am already dead. I can not come back to life now.
What I am doing for others and what I am expecting in return is just insane. How can not be heartbroken? How can I not cry when all I do is trust blindly. I expect people to understand what they can never.
I expect them to feel some part of my anxiety. To understand how hard it is for me. That I can not control that. I can not stop that. Trust me, I want to.. More than anything. I want to.
But Alas! It does not work like that.
My life, my life can never be what I want it to. I can not live without crying. I can only survive if I kill the hope and cry.
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Things I never said
RandomThis is just a collection of my thoughts. I'm writing this so that my mind would be at peace. Reading it can either help you or ruin your mood 😌 I would recommend "not to read" 💃 And yes! There might be some typos or grammatical errors, that's bc...
