I'm scared. I feel like I'll wake up tomorrow and everything will be the same. I'll have to live another day. Especially my birthday. I don't want to. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
There are so many emotions. I'm don't know how to put them in different boxes so the chaos would end. Is there a way to solve a puzzle that requires only 50 pieces and you have 1000? Is there a way to figure out which 50 pieces would fit?
I'm a disaster. I resent myself. I hate it when it's my birthday and people try to gift me, bring me chocolates and cakes. I don't deserve that. It makes me feel guilty. It makes me feel a burden that I don't have to feel if they just understand.
I get it that they do this out of love but can they help me find a way to not feel guilty about it?
I don't want to wake up and feel all this. There are so many emotions that when mixed, no matter how much color of joy you add, the mixture always turns out to be black. It's always a disaster.
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RandomThis is just a collection of my thoughts. I'm writing this so that my mind would be at peace. Reading it can either help you or ruin your mood 😌 I would recommend "not to read" 💃 And yes! There might be some typos or grammatical errors, that's bc...
