All The Things I Couldn't Say

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Of course I had loved you. I spent the better parts of my life loving you, yearning for you even after we had parted.

You were my childhood crush, my first love. And I never loved anyone after you.

I was once willing to do anything for you.

We parted ways because we had different goals in life. Years later we met by chance. You tried to rekindle our flame.

I am sorry. I cannot simply love you. I cannot love anyone anymore.

You asked me what happened and I do not know how to tell you. Explain all of my grievances, my pain.

I was once talkative and outgoing.

Now even words make me feel constipated. I can barely sympathize. The world around me had successfully broken me down.

I yearn to be loved by another, yet I do not desire yours.

I am sorry, you are not the problem.

I am the one with a problem.