𝘐𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘒𝘢𝘦𝘺𝘢'𝘴 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘥

𝘔𝘺 𝘋𝘳𝘶𝘯𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘕𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵

1, 2, 3, 4... 4 bottles.

Wow, I think I got a bit too much dandelion wine, 4 entire empty bottles.

Hehe.

I guess it's fair, I am kind of in the mood to drown my sorrows in alcohol. I think I'll get some Death After Noon next. In the mean time, I'll just finish off this bottle.

For context, I am at the tavern and in the mood to submerge myself in alcohol, which causes me to drink the bottles rather hastily. So, I can just drown myself with the alcohol quicker.

I walked down to go ask Diluc if I could get some of the delicious Death After Noon wine.

"Good evening, Master *hic* Diluc!" I said to him.

"Evening, Kaeya." He let out a sigh. "What do you want?" He asked me.

"Just some of your *hic* finest of Death *hic* After Noon wine!" I answered.

"Alright. Would you like to pay when you're done drinking, or just pay for your wine now?" Diluc questioned.

"I'll pay when I finish!" I replied.

Diluc started mixing the drink and handed it to me, I walked back up the stairs and set down the glass of wine. Hearing it pound on the table, causing some of the other bottles to almost fall off.

I sipped the wine, or more of chugged it.

I wonder what Diluc truly thinks of me.

I wonder what Jean truly thinks of me.

I wonder what Amber truly thinks of me.

I wonder what Lisa truly thinks of me.

I wonder what the traveler truly thinks of me.

I wonder what everyone truly thinks of me.

I wish I could find out.

Alas, I can't just read people's minds, and if I asked them straight forward, they could just lie to me with ease.

I heard the bell that chimes every time a customer comes and leaves the tavern, it reminds me of the sound of glasses clanking together.

I didn't think much of it and continued drinking my wine. Surprisingly, I am not too drunk yet. I guess I'll go pick up more dandelion wine.

I made my way downstairs, and saw the green bard boy. He comes here practically every night, every, night.

I asked for 3 bottles of dandelion wine, it should be enough.

Diluc handed me the bottles, and I, again, went up to my table, and sat the bottles down. This time, I took a minute to stop and stare at the table, specifically my empty bottles of wine.

Lord Barbatos, what am I doing with my life? I'm out here drinking, when I could be doing something so much more productive. I could be finding a cure for cancer right now! But, no! I'm sat at a tavern drinking to run from my problems! I'm so selfish... why can't I be like Jean? Why can't I be useful like her? Why can't I be a skilled mage with so much wisdom to share like Lisa? A skilled glider, and amazing outrider like Amber? Or a person like the traveler who saves entire nations...? I'll never be as good as them.

Never.