Bee In The Garden: Beeduo

Chapter 3: Sexuality Crisis

[Mc's POV - Tubbo]
[happy pride month to all, enjoy your day]

I was just casually showing the new kid off to school, to go sight seeing to say the least. And he was surprisingly polite, he didn't ask any questions and would just listen careful.

Although, I would sometimes catch him staring at me, and not the room or place I'm poiting at. But I chose to brush it off, as maybe he just wanted to listen more of me talking by looking.

Despite his mysterious auro, maybe also because of his mask and sun glasses, he was also surprisingly interested. He would sometimes ask where something is and I would tell him.

Though, I did sense that he had a particular liking to volleyball. Since he payed really close attention when we went to the volleyball gym. The sport suits the guy, honestly.

I mean he's tall, and volleyball is kinda less harmful than basketball. He seems shy, but I'm glad that he's opening up to me a bit, unlike the others. Nice to see someone treating me equally.

As you may know from the rumors, yes I'm aware of them, people call me a prodigy or some shit like that. But honestly, I just wanna do good in school and mind my owb business.

That was the original plan, but I feel like I acted it out too far. As I was now known as the nerdy prince or something. I hated the attention, and I hated how they treat me differently.

I wanna be treated like every normal student, but no, they had to treat me like some sort of royal. And because of that, everyone is fond of me, but doesn't wanna be friends with me.

Don't get me wrong, I love my peace, but that doesn't mean I like being lonely. And the fact that people envy and fan over me is too much. Why can't they just ask me to be their friend instead of simping?

Am I that unapproachable? I'm just a normal guy who's trying to have good grades in academics. Why the hell is it so damn hard to make the simplest friends? But again, I'm thankful that someone is opening up to me.

And I wouldn't believe it, but it was the new mysterious tall kid who made me a tad bit happy. So I started opening up to him too, by telling him that the garden was my favorite place to be at.

We made a small but comfortable conversation about it. Though he didn't ask any further about my reasoning of being alone, and just made a small joke about me liking my space.

It was nice til he suddenly responds to me with; "No, I think it's cute". I suddenly stopped breathing, and looked him straight in the eye, not that I can see his in the first place.

Did he just call me cute? That's a weird thing to say to someone you just met, especially a boy. He should've said no homo or something, but silence came after his response, which made me gulp.

It's alright, he didn't meant it the way I thought it was, probably. Let's not overthink now, especially since I just met him. Let's not get too hasty and jump to conclusions.

As I was practically screaming in my head, in reality, we were both just staring at each other is silence. He then broke it off a bit by clearing his throat before saying, "Sorry, was I too honest?".

He paused afterwards, then adding, "Did that make you uncomfortable? I'm sorry...". He mumbled the sorry part in like a whisper matter as he bowed his head down in shame.

I finally snapped out my thoughts and quickly shook my head whilst saying, "No no, it's alright, I was just... thinking about something else, that's it, no need to be sorry". Well that was an obvious lie.

I mentally face palmed myself as that excuse was fucking lame, but who cares, at least it made him look up now. I sigh as I patted his arm lightly, making him lower his head a bit.

"I told you it's fine, don't worry" "Okay..." "You can go to lunch now, the tours over", he nods and left whistling waving to me. I just smiled and sat on my usual bench, gazing at the plants.

It's suppose to be a peaceful place, yet I don't feel at peace at all. Why was his one response bothering me? Is it cause no one has ever called cute at all? Like no one ever compliments me like tha-

"No, I think it's cute". The sentence repeated itself in my head, remembering it made my face heat up profusely. Am I seriously making a fuss about a small response/compliment?

Wait- why is my face even feeling hot in the first place? I'm perfectly straight, or not even attracted to anyone at the fact. Or, was it just him? Him as a person?

Gah! I don't even know him that well, and the fact that I don't even know what he looks like at all. So why, why is he making me feel this way? Is he seriously making me have a gay(?) crisis right now?

My panic was abruptly stopped as the sound of the school bell was being rang throughout the whole school. I sighed as I remembered that I didn't eat anything at all this lunch.

Did I seriously spend the whole 30 minutes of lunch time thinking about that new kid? I mentally abused myself as the fact was sounding pathetic to him, it was just something he could never imagine doing.

He felt pathetic, but felt a bit proud as a small bit of him understood that he maybe attracted to this new kid, Ranboo. He felt, safer? Or relieved to say the least.

But his sexuality wasn't confirmed yet. Though, he did think that later after all the afternoon classes, he'll head to the school library and research about sexualities and such.

He was happy with the idea, and lightly jogged his way to his next class, which was art. That wasn't a problem for him, though he could never compete against Karl, but he was still decent at it.

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All afternoon classes ended swiftly, though I felt like it was a tad bit longer this time. Like, it was like time was slowing down whenever he glances or straight up stares at Ranboo.

It was a bit hard, since he was caught not listening to class from time to time. But the teachers brushed it off, as I was stressing out cause of mid-term exams coming up.

I didn't protest, as I didn't have any better excuse than whatever the teachers made for him. But anyways, I would also catch Ranboo staring at me too. That definitely made me tense up a lot.

Though, I couldn't tell what emotion he was expressing whenever he stares at me. Since his eyes were covered by the annoying sun glasses he was always wearing. The teachers didn't question about it, thankfully.

Since I think he has a purpose of covering his face. I understood that, but goddammit, did that make me really irritated. I just wanna see his face for once what the hell.

I brushed off my thoughts as I was now inside the library. I searched through the every section of the shelves that had the label 'lgbt' onto them. He wasn't looking for a novel, but for an sexuality book.

As I searched through the shelves carefully, I then found the a book that fitted what I wanted to read. The book said 'finding your sexuality'. The was all I needed to grab the book and open it.

I searched through the table of contents, looking for the specific gay or pansexual section. Though throught looking, I was intrigued by the multiple sexualities in there.

I finally found the homosexual section, and read through it carefully. "Attracts to boys with preferences...". I muttered out loud, but in which I immediately regretted. "Is that a gay book?"